• Re: I'VE GOT

    From %@21:1/5 to David on Mon Nov 15 12:05:54 2021
    XPost: alt.support.depression

    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%"  wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8nZ2dnUU7-f-dnZ2d@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <pursent100@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%"  wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8nZ2dnUU7-SGdnZ2d@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%"  wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8nZ2dnUU7-LPNnZ2d@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

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  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Mon Nov 15 09:30:10 2021
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

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  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Mon Nov 15 13:31:17 2021
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for >>> it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

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  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Mon Nov 15 10:43:20 2021
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for >>> it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for.

    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

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  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Mon Nov 15 12:03:46 2021
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I >>>>> can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for >>>>> it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for.

    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

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  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Mon Nov 15 11:53:27 2021
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I >>>>> can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for.

    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would at least
    stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my computer,
    hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park there, he's
    just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking this Rx
    medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

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  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Mon Nov 15 13:16:52 2021
    On 2021-11-15 12:53 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I >>>>>>> can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for.

    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would at least
    stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my computer,
    hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park there, he's
    just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking this Rx
    medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

    you should try blaming me

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  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Mon Nov 15 12:28:14 2021
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 12:16:58 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 12:53 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com... >>>>>>>
    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for.

    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would at
    least stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my
    computer, hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park there, he'
    s just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking this Rx
    medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

    you should try blaming me

    i'm afraid if i blame the person who caused it, i will lose you.

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  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Mon Nov 15 16:21:29 2021
    On 11/15/2021 3:28 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 12:16:58 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 12:53 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com... >>>>>>>>>
    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I >>>>>>>>> can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for.

    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would at
    least stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my
    computer, hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park there, he'
    s just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking this Rx
    medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

    you should try blaming me

    i'm afraid if i blame the person who caused it, i will lose you.

    i'm easy to spot

    https://imgur.com/a/UXzxN8a

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Mon Nov 15 13:51:05 2021
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:21:32 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 3:28 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 12:16:58 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 12:53 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com... >>>>>>>>>
    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for.

    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would at
    least stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my
    computer, hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park there,
    he's just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking this Rx
    medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

    you should try blaming me

    i'm afraid if i blame the person who caused it, i will lose you.

    i'm easy to spot

    https://imgur.com/a/UXzxN8a

    i'm the bertha mason of hollywood....the hush hush sweet charlotte.....the ahem, large woman with dark hair....thanks fester.

    well, this has been a blast. i'm only more fucking deranged than ever now (comfortably numb thanks to medical science.)

    but nobody has any respect. no! you're ADDICT! you took PILLS! go to meetings and talk about it, how YOU are SICK, there's something wrong with YOU, you are SCHIZO, you IMAGINE things, you had an AUDITORY HALLUCINATION, go back to school, so and so is
    married, we are the professionals, sorry, the blasting noise in the movie theatre didn't hurt your ears, sorry, i disagree with you...

    never mind.

    sorry, i am just so sick(ened) it's not funny.

    right, what am i going to do when the pills run out. oh, they'll just lock me away, where i belong, for being continually abused.

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to roach on Mon Nov 15 13:52:49 2021
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:51:06 PM UTC-8, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:21:32 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 3:28 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 12:16:58 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 12:53 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote: >>>>>>>> On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com... >>>>>>>>>
    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for.

    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would at
    least stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my
    computer, hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park there,
    he's just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking this
    Rx medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

    you should try blaming me

    i'm afraid if i blame the person who caused it, i will lose you.

    i'm easy to spot

    https://imgur.com/a/UXzxN8a
    i'm the bertha mason of hollywood....the hush hush sweet charlotte.....the ahem, large woman with dark hair....thanks fester.

    well, this has been a blast. i'm only more fucking deranged than ever now (comfortably numb thanks to medical science.)

    but nobody has any respect. no! you're ADDICT! you took PILLS! go to meetings and talk about it, how YOU are SICK, there's something wrong with YOU, you are SCHIZO, you IMAGINE things, you had an AUDITORY HALLUCINATION, go back to school, so and so is
    married, we are the professionals, sorry, the blasting noise in the movie theatre didn't hurt your ears, sorry, i disagree with you...

    never mind.

    sorry, i am just so sick(ened) it's not funny.

    right, what am i going to do when the pills run out. oh, they'll just lock me away, where i belong, for being continually abused.

    hey, you know what my mom said when i told her so and so (not you) raped me? she said, NO HE DIDN'T!!!!!!!!!!

    she KNOWS, cuz she was THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! when it DIDN'T HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!

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  • From roach@21:1/5 to roach on Mon Nov 15 13:58:26 2021
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:52:50 PM UTC-8, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:51:06 PM UTC-8, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:21:32 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 3:28 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 12:16:58 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 12:53 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote: >>>>>>>> On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com... >>>>>>>>>
    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for. >>>>>
    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would
    at least stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my
    computer, hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park
    there, he's just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking
    this Rx medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

    you should try blaming me

    i'm afraid if i blame the person who caused it, i will lose you.

    i'm easy to spot

    https://imgur.com/a/UXzxN8a
    i'm the bertha mason of hollywood....the hush hush sweet charlotte.....the ahem, large woman with dark hair....thanks fester.

    well, this has been a blast. i'm only more fucking deranged than ever now (comfortably numb thanks to medical science.)

    but nobody has any respect. no! you're ADDICT! you took PILLS! go to meetings and talk about it, how YOU are SICK, there's something wrong with YOU, you are SCHIZO, you IMAGINE things, you had an AUDITORY HALLUCINATION, go back to school, so and so
    is married, we are the professionals, sorry, the blasting noise in the movie theatre didn't hurt your ears, sorry, i disagree with you...

    never mind.

    sorry, i am just so sick(ened) it's not funny.

    right, what am i going to do when the pills run out. oh, they'll just lock me away, where i belong, for being continually abused.
    hey, you know what my mom said when i told her so and so (not you) raped me? she said, NO HE DIDN'T!!!!!!!!!!

    she KNOWS, cuz she was THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! when it DIDN'T HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!

    and it's not even about that. that was fucking NOTHING compared to the last 9 years.

    my house fucking floods with shit. TWICE. just when i was juuuuuuust starting to feel safe, a year later or whatever it was, i'd have to go back and look, think about it, etc....

    love this disease. love it love it love it.

    it's GREAT being mentally ill!!!!!!!!!!!! and it's even in REMISSION!!!!!!!!!!! wow, do i feel great!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i know that's jumbled, whatever, i'm so upset i'm being sarcastic etc....)

    the lady in new jersey made the news when it was her fucking basement.

    never mind, man. never fucking mind. just fucking forget it, rachel. there is no help for you.

    having a beloved in your arms won't help.

    we're going to do psychotherapy on you instead. that will make you feel better.

    i'm only more fucking deranged than i have ever been in my whole life. faaaaaaantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yippee, hurray for meeeee!!!!!!!

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Mon Nov 15 15:35:12 2021
    On 2021-11-15 2:58 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:52:50 PM UTC-8, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:51:06 PM UTC-8, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:21:32 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 3:28 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 12:16:58 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 12:53 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>> On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com... >>>>>>>>>>>>>
    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for. >>>>>>>>>
    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would at
    least stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my
    computer, hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park there,
    he's just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking this
    Rx medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

    you should try blaming me

    i'm afraid if i blame the person who caused it, i will lose you.

    i'm easy to spot

    https://imgur.com/a/UXzxN8a
    i'm the bertha mason of hollywood....the hush hush sweet charlotte.....the ahem, large woman with dark hair....thanks fester.

    well, this has been a blast. i'm only more fucking deranged than ever now (comfortably numb thanks to medical science.)

    but nobody has any respect. no! you're ADDICT! you took PILLS! go to meetings and talk about it, how YOU are SICK, there's something wrong with YOU, you are SCHIZO, you IMAGINE things, you had an AUDITORY HALLUCINATION, go back to school, so and so
    is married, we are the professionals, sorry, the blasting noise in the movie theatre didn't hurt your ears, sorry, i disagree with you...

    never mind.

    sorry, i am just so sick(ened) it's not funny.

    right, what am i going to do when the pills run out. oh, they'll just lock me away, where i belong, for being continually abused.
    hey, you know what my mom said when i told her so and so (not you) raped me? she said, NO HE DIDN'T!!!!!!!!!!

    she KNOWS, cuz she was THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! when it DIDN'T HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!

    and it's not even about that. that was fucking NOTHING compared to the last 9 years.

    my house fucking floods with shit. TWICE. just when i was juuuuuuust starting to feel safe, a year later or whatever it was, i'd have to go back and look, think about it, etc....

    love this disease. love it love it love it.

    it's GREAT being mentally ill!!!!!!!!!!!! and it's even in REMISSION!!!!!!!!!!! wow, do i feel great!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i know that's jumbled, whatever, i'm so upset i'm being sarcastic etc....)

    the lady in new jersey made the news when it was her fucking basement.

    never mind, man. never fucking mind. just fucking forget it, rachel. there is no help for you.

    having a beloved in your arms won't help.

    we're going to do psychotherapy on you instead. that will make you feel better.

    i'm only more fucking deranged than i have ever been in my whole life. faaaaaaantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yippee, hurray for meeeee!!!!!!!

    that's nice dear

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Nov 16 03:06:33 2021
    On 11/15/2021 4:58 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:52:50 PM UTC-8, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:51:06 PM UTC-8, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 1:21:32 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 11/15/2021 3:28 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 12:16:58 PM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 12:53 p.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 11:03:53 AM UTC-8, % wrote:
    On 2021-11-15 11:43 a.m., roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 10:31:18 AM UTC-8, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>> On 11/15/2021 12:30 PM, roach wrote:
    On Monday, November 15, 2021 at 9:05:55 AM UTC-8, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> On 11/15/2021 11:58 AM, David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message news:RtKdndV4t6mQVwz8...@giganews.com... >>>>>>>>>>>>>
    On 2021-11-14 7:03 p.m., canoleenie wrote:
    % <purse...@gmail.com> wrote:
    On 2021-11-14 6:43 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:OYSdncl3wqiAOwz8...@giganews.com...

    On 2021-11-14 5:03 p.m., David wrote:


    "%" wrote in message
    news:WLidnb5ZKPZQCAz8...@giganews.com...

    .

    extraw

    I have a 36 pack.

    i have curly straws

    I need pop lids to keep bugs off.

    What goes on the pop lids


    bug the bugs




    pop tops

    I have to go like an elephant (like #2), and then it starts to pee. I
    can't, and then sit on the computer to hold it in. Is there any help for
    it? I appreciate it.

    my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety and constipation,
    i'm worried shitless

    exercise, drink chamomile tea, take xanax, drink lots of warm water, and use an ex-lax.

    i just took 11 pills and an injection

    how r your feet?

    i wish i knew what all those 11 pills and injection were for. >>>>>>>>>
    i also wish we could do this in private.

    it would be so special...

    after all these years....don't we deserve it?

    he's not even me but good idea take him with you

    when i say it would be so special...i mean....i just wish i could help you so bad...and if not, well, just be nice to you.

    but you seem so prickly...it's a real turn-off. i mean, if i were IN your life...well, if you were as prickly as you are here sometimes, i think it's you, if there were nothing i could do to help, well, as long as you didn't abuse me, i would at
    least stay with you, if that would help/bring you comfort, sit through it with you...maybe i'm all wrong...maybe it would just make it worse, like me ranting futilely to you on the computer, leading me to become even a danger to myself, pounding my
    computer, hitting myself to make myself stop because you never help me, etc...(what, am i the devil??? are you crazy???) why are you so cranky, and what can i do to help???? i won't give up on you, unless you....well.....abuse me.

    this is so painful, because the ONLY way i am HANDLING THIS right now, my own horrible life, is medication. i feel like a fucking piece of garbage, like that drawing, the man on the bench with the crumpled paper on the pavement in the park there,
    he's just sitting there, slouching, looking at it. powerful stuff. you're a good artist.

    but i'm so sick of your paranoia, it's seriously not worth it. i was carried away with the exuberance of youth, and if you don't shape up and get normal fast, i am so inclined to just check out. i feel like i'm already faking it now, taking this
    Rx medication to lull me into the delusion that i don't care and things are fine, when they are not.

    you should try blaming me

    i'm afraid if i blame the person who caused it, i will lose you.

    i'm easy to spot

    https://imgur.com/a/UXzxN8a
    i'm the bertha mason of hollywood....the hush hush sweet charlotte.....the ahem, large woman with dark hair....thanks fester.

    well, this has been a blast. i'm only more fucking deranged than ever now (comfortably numb thanks to medical science.)

    but nobody has any respect. no! you're ADDICT! you took PILLS! go to meetings and talk about it, how YOU are SICK, there's something wrong with YOU, you are SCHIZO, you IMAGINE things, you had an AUDITORY HALLUCINATION, go back to school, so and so
    is married, we are the professionals, sorry, the blasting noise in the movie theatre didn't hurt your ears, sorry, i disagree with you...

    never mind.

    sorry, i am just so sick(ened) it's not funny.

    right, what am i going to do when the pills run out. oh, they'll just lock me away, where i belong, for being continually abused.
    hey, you know what my mom said when i told her so and so (not you) raped me? she said, NO HE DIDN'T!!!!!!!!!!

    she KNOWS, cuz she was THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! when it DIDN'T HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!

    and it's not even about that. that was fucking NOTHING compared to the last 9 years.

    my house fucking floods with shit. TWICE. just when i was juuuuuuust starting to feel safe, a year later or whatever it was, i'd have to go back and look, think about it, etc....

    love this disease. love it love it love it.

    it's GREAT being mentally ill!!!!!!!!!!!! and it's even in REMISSION!!!!!!!!!!! wow, do i feel great!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i know that's jumbled, whatever, i'm so upset i'm being sarcastic etc....)

    the lady in new jersey made the news when it was her fucking basement.

    never mind, man. never fucking mind. just fucking forget it, rachel. there is no help for you.

    having a beloved in your arms won't help.

    we're going to do psychotherapy on you instead. that will make you feel better.

    i'm only more fucking deranged than i have ever been in my whole life. faaaaaaantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yippee, hurray for meeeee!!!!!!!

    i didn't have to teach the woman i live with she already gives good blumkins

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