He sold you as his girlfriend
But you keep going on to him
What makes you sacrifice your innocence
Your beauty
Your youth

For someone who does not know
What you are worth?
I can only watch your picture
And I see you had your fun
Maybe you are that kind
Maybe they turned you that way
I might never know

For I am left in my shadows
Only to watch what they show
And what they show is that my angel has lost her wings
What will be left is the emptiness
Maybe the mood swings

I drink my whiskey
Johhny Walker is a reliable friend
But it cannot wash away the filth
And I come back returning
To catch a glimpse of your innocence
You have never found me forth of
But instead, you have it all
To the guy who sold you

It seems unfair
But the Universe seems to be made that way
And we may better adjust
Maybe it was my error
For I loved an earthling
And now pay I must

I broke the galaxy law
And became one of those whom the galaxy disowns

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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They never told me there is such a law
Until I cared
I broke it
And I was disowned

If I lied to you you'd knew
You know that I cared
And then you despised me
And now we learned the truth

We are the apostates
And we can't come back
The weight is on my back
And it woudn't subside
I recall that once you were my angel
One that you were my guide

There are religions
And there are the States
And there are the nations
But not for us
We are the rejects
No one thought of us

Naturally you would think that I brought you the way of salvation
But I know none to this day
I feel so stranded here
I feel I might dismay

Do you even care
That your soul will be left here to perish with the things?
Do you even care
Or want back your wings?

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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What makes you go to him
When I would want you back
Despite it all
And you were just his snack?

I think of the energies
And the lower ones consuming
But I hope one day you'll be free, my dear
And our day will be looming

Maybe not in this body and flesh
But you will come new and fresh
I can see it in your eyes
That this is not your top
This is not your final demise
And you will ascend
Before this world will end

I might not be worth a tear
I might not be worth a cry
But I still can just predict
I still can prophesy

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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I cannot seem to understand
What makes you attracted
And turned on
To the guys exponentially worse than me
Who will cheat you, dear
Who will sell you
Who will not care if you turned queer

But you were my angel
You were my guide
You were once a different kind

Now you let him treat you like all the rest
You let him treat you like meat
You know that he'll be bad
You know that he will cheat

And my only conclusion
In this world of delusion
Is that somehow you were meant to be
You chose to be his, rather than free

I try to figure out what was in your mind
To save the rest
To pass the test
Will you help me
Will you despise and mock me?

I am not an academic
And to be frank
They said I was a schizophrenic
One label is sufficient to cancel my life
But I bring it before you, dear
To choose, decide, and strive
It might not be unfair
But I might be the only one left who cared

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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Though they say
That you are just a Russian girl
The Russian meat
A Russian whore

I know that I crave for you
And you're the one I adore
You have the charm
You have the talent
You have the wit

What makes you go to him
Who reduces you to a pussy
Who reduces you to a slit?
Dirty sex dreams become real
I cannot understand
The ultimate demand
Of the Universe
To save a fallen race

It might not even be possible
It might be dull
They will gladly tell you it was a Messianic complex
Or I was simply dull
But nobody seems to care
The way I do ... in this Universe
Is it a blessing or a curse?

They say that we have denied the Lamb
For having walked the less trodden paths
That aren't reached by the sense or the maths
I am trying to reach you
Do you listen to my frequency, dear?
Do you think I'm weird?
Do you think I'm queer?

Maybe you think it is the right way
When he treats you as meat
How could you ever forget
The way our hearts beat?

I feel there is something cosmic connecting us
And you are not just flesh
They have no rights on you
And your way is new and fresh
But you only need to listen to your guide
Once I was one of the fallen
Now I might be your guide

I wanted you, but I have to leave all of the pretensions
To be worthy to save you
To be part of the higher dimensions
In the times when they erased my mind
I did too many mistakes
I changed my genes to preserve my kind
And we're no longer the same race
I could be only with the one that took the same path
And ended up in the same place

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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I still watch your beauty
I still crave you my dear
Maybe you think I'm old goat
Maybe you think I'm weird
Maybe you think I'm queer
I don't know how you think, my dear

And now I am fifty-four
By calender, but I want more
I feel younger
I feel stronger
I feel out of time
I told you all and I hoped you will be mine
There is no secret left
Except that which is hidden from the world
The word untold
They will never find
They would never reveal
Or they would steal
Or they would kill

It is so hard to preserve
Anything innocent
Anything pure
Anything worthy of the time
When I said you're mine
When they said they work for God
And I was too bold

I still watch your beauty, dear
But it becomes clear
That in this life
I might not have the likes of you
Because you crave for something different
Something I found untrue

I love you more than the Cosmos does
But in the conflict of the energies
I would just disappear
Turn non-existing
Maybe tun queer
Is this what the others did
Trying to lift your lid?
Can my verses reach you?
Can my verses touch you at all?
Do I really matter?
To you?

I am trying to be true
I am trying not to lie to you
Like all the rest
I guess we have to go through the pain
And endure the test
Endure the loss
Of the precious things
Watch the angels losing their wings
Because it is the will of the higher power
Which I might understand
But the pain is overwhelming
So I return to my fortress
So I return to my tower

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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