Family Guy <
madeforzyngagames@yahoo.com> wrote in news:
16106406-7a22-4583-93b8-c53d2b792e59n@googlegroups.com:
C'mon Johnny boy, let's see some spirit!
Get to groveling or making more content, man!
Hold your head up high, pound that keyboard and show the world that
you're more than just a narcissistic, self-centered, delusional,
paranoid jackass enveloped in a pity party so big it violates noise ordinances and building codes!
You can do it, Jo-Jo! Someone out there besides yourself has faith in
you!
This year promises to be a load of fun. John wants to buy some property
in Michigan with a home and a studio. But he's going to need everyone to
help him pay for it.
John may actually get a job. Mind you, it is only meant to be part time
so that it doesn't interfere with gaming and porn and recycling past
content and memes. Let's let John say it in his won words.
"I anticipate the long-term results of this move to be extremely
positive in ways I haven't even started seriously considering yet,
including opportunities to get back into live performance on multiple
levels and expand my work into more commercial spaces while continuing
to work on the public interest and social justice content that I
consider to be "what I do," with each empowering the other to greater
heights over time (further fueled by my own input due to income sources
that haven't been available to me previously in terms of "day job"
work."
If that wasn't clear, and it isn't, there's a whole bunch of weaseling
to come!
"I have a possible/probable gig I'm following up on, but probably won't
hear anything until next week of course due to holidays. Due to stalker
issues I'm not going to say more than that about what it is, other than part-time and pays a bit under 20 an hour, and that arrangement is
likely to be best for me in terms of being able to continue my own work
rather than jumping straight into 40+ hours and a commute, leaving me
with zero energy for anything else."
Likely a temp job from the agency just down the street. Most likely a janitor/toilet swabber that pays 17/hr. Let's get on to the mooching!
"I've got some bills coming in over the next few days including Adobe
(now $65/month) and I need to pick up at least another quarter ($20-ish)
of web hosting. All my other little bills like MS office are paid for
the moment, at least until the last week of next month. And I still
have to eat and get around, get back and forth to this gig if it comes
through, etc. (Soon as I get my Medicaid card I can pick up a monthly
bus pass at a steep discount - $28 for the month, versus what would work
out to a minimum of $5/day for every day I work so minimum $25/week.)
Once that shakes out and I have a more certain picture of what my life
is going to look like for the next several months to a year or so, I'll
feel more comfortable about making promises regarding new or ongoing
content. It's coming - I am who I am, and there's just not going to be
a time when I don't have something to say. But right now I'm probably
not going to be saying as much, as often, over the next few weeks as I
have been prior to this recent relocation, as I figure out what's
happening with this new gig and hopefully get settled into it and used
to the idea of having some kind of steady income beyond what I'm able to
earn through my work here. Have also added about 8000 words to what will
be my first book, but it might be another four years before I finish it
so I'm not really talking about that yet."
I'll bet you can't wait for the book. It's four years away but he's only
been working on it since 2010.
The mooch continues:
"Broadly speaking, right now I have two primary goals related to "work"
- a new computer, and a new vehicle. Those are the two things that my
energy and as much of my income as I can manage (including your
contributions!) will be directed toward for the next six months or so.
The computer's first because frankly the box I've got is getting too old
to produce content of a high enough quality to hold the interest or gain
a sense of legitimacy from a modern audience. I do get a small step
forward on that point in that the burner phone I bought to make the trip
out west has a perfectly serviceable camera build in that I can use as a
video source for OBS Studio. (Having a reasonably decent cam/phone is
also a huge bonus, but the phone part of that will be going away here in another few days. I may or may not try to keep it active going forward,
or I might just hold on to it as a wifi-only appliance and aim toward
getting a really decent phone and "real" service over these next few
weeks and months, depending on a number of variables."
Buy John a car! Buy John a brand new gaming and porn computer! Keep
sending money!
But wait! There's sooooo much more!
"John: I should say out loud, too, I don't know if it falls under
"depression" or not but the last several years have just been a
relentless shitshow, and holy cow am I tired. I haven't processed
everything and probably won't do so entirely for a long time if ever.
But right now, where my trot seems to be taking me (to steal a riff from
Chuck Tingle) is toward quiet and introspection and careful
consideration of what I want the rest of my life to be and how I'm going
to make it so, so that's where my brain is right now. It may be there
for a minute - meaning a few weeks or even months during which it
doesn't seem like there's a whole lot happening. I'll probably find some
kind of "regular" work for at least a while, get settled into having
some kind of income, and spend some time just recharging and
re-orienting and grokking the experiences of the last few years, while continuing to work toward the larger goals that have always been the
point in terms of getting new content into the world and empowering
people against disinformation and speaking truth to power. I think that
it's because of this tiredness right now that I haven't felt
particularly inspired to jump back in to where I thought I was heading
before I found out I was going to have to move again. Not to say I've
"lost interest" in the things that have always mattered to me, just that nothing has jumped out and moved me to create something urgent about it recently, and that probably reflects my overall state of mind. I think
in terms of self-care and even long-term quality of the work I do here,
it will probably be best for me to take some time and focus on finding
work, getting into a new gig, and setting in to a lifestyle that
involves selling off some hours of my time for a period of months or
even a couple of years, building up resources AGAIN to try to do this
right, and finding space in between to keep producing new content, keep writing, etc. as much as possible so y'all don't forget me. We'll see.
The stark reality is I need a LOT just to get my gear in order and set
up a stable living situation that would allow me the time and space and resources to properly focus on this work, and while I have no doubt of
the appeal of the work to draw attention and money over time, I also
think the work itself would be well-served if I took the time right now
to re-orient, re-focus, avoid committing to anything or stapling myself
to any kind of time commitments, and let things flow. So that's where I
am right now. Could change tomorrow, who knows."
Translation: Keep sending money even though I'm not doing anything.
John whines about why he's an asshole:
John: "I learned a long time ago that I don't have the right attitude
for holidays and tend on such occasions to suck the fun out of the room
without realizing it, so I just kinda stay away from people."
If it's not all about John, he pisses and moans. Looks like a few people
told him that already. He's too self-absorbed to understand that people
stay away from him every other time as well.
John is officially a welfare loafer:
"John Henry
If anyone out there was holding off on throwing a few coins in the jar
to see how I landed out here, now would be a good time. I've just
completed application for food and medical assistance and have to
schedule an in-person appointment about food. Approved for medical,
card's in the mail. Right now I'm like $26 overdrawn on my paypal
account and need to get that caught up. I've got some macaroni elbows,
tomato juice, and ramen, but nothing by way of protein or real vitamins.
Plus no way to get on a bus once the six or eight bucks in my pocket
gets melted away by cans of soup to add to that stuff ?? Other than that
I'm okay. Not great but okay. Getting better. But I do need to get
through the next few days until I find out for sure if I'm going to get
any help with food."
Fuck everyone else. Send all your money to John! Beefaroni isn't cheap
and Adobe bills are coming in.
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