PPS: "he latter debatable even by current standards (this is a country that loves corporal punishment!)"

I forgot to add, explicitly, that I *do* accept that I was abusive, and I hate myself for it every day, and I work to try to help other people see that behavior is abusive, whether it's "just" spanking or "worse." I'm not claiming to be pristine and
pure, and I never have. I was absolute shit from the time I was 17 until I was about thirty, and then another good 7 or 8 years of intense self-examination and hard work to understand why I was that way and what I needed to do to not be.

Just throwing that out there so "Dave" here doesn't try to rewrite the narrative to suggest I'm pretending I've never done anything wrong.
-jh

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On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 10:05:26 AM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
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On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

"Checkmate <moderat...@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave...@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f18dc08...@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading posts
by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say the
following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim. So >>>> > how best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will read! >>>> >
That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but it's
hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So are
a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners selfish,
please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll realize,
it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a clearinghouse, >>>> helping guide those in need to net.resources: for digging
themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks... we
have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in over
4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of 2018.
Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15 years
before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a well
despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the content.
His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after he
was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used cigarettes
he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide and
confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total of 10
dollars for the month of June.

I hope the healing message I sent him didn't scare him off.

He could be someone someday. Who knows?

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds of
hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out on
cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking heavily
on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill myself via
narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just shoot myself
in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in which my posts
weren't fortified with at least three different drugs, and often
twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

You don't have John himself posting to the froup. (Meanwhile,
Perfessor Mojibake can't keep from scribbling in a.c.)

But we do! His Laz Mann sockpuppet posts every now and then to shill and
beg for money.

Suspecting you don't have John himself posting in RSPW because
his is a suspected anxious-avoidant attachment
strategy. (I wouldn't expect him to post, it's too
hostile for him.)

No, it's because John's last explicit appearance as Net.Bastard was such
an overwhelming failure that he has no desire to own up to his rants.
He's stopped in and attempted to be someone else since. Don't
overanalyze it.

All of this is bullshit. This person - who is almost certainly not Dave Zimmerman, as I can't recall a single time Dave and I ever had hostility nor can I think of any reason he'd be involved; the last I heard anything about him he'd supposedly moved to
Australia or something after a woman in the UK he was trying to hook up with dumped him - has spent the last twenty-five years or so hiding behind sockpuppets and recruiting petit trolls and harassers to do his dirty work for him, while hiding behind an
army of sockpuppets and fake names and leveraging the various helpful aspects of different websites and social media networks to conceal his identity. They know I tend to REALLY piss off a small set of folks, and they feed those folks and encourage them
to escalate and propagate all the BS, so as to ensure nobody can be held directly responsible for any of it.

This is the first time I've posted to this group since 2018. The only reason I'm here now is because I googled my name on a whim and realized that this is a huge part of the reason I can't get a job at all beyond schtupping canned goods at a grocery
store or digging ditches, neither of which I'm physically able to do anymore due to various wear and tear related to aging - I'm fifty-two.

When I stopped by here at the end of 2018 - at the encouragement of a "friend" - I was here for half an hour, took one look at the place, and went "no fuckin' way, the few people left here are completely out of their tree, fuck. all. this." That was
after having left back in 2005 because I founded a non-profit theater group and didn't want this person and their fellow travelers hassling a bunch of kids.

I've never made a secret of my "secrets." I was strung out on coke for a dozen years, up until '99. I was a physically abusive boyfriend and father; the latter debatable even by current standards (this is a country that loves corporal punishment!), and
I've been very open about that in public in the hope that by doing so I could encourage others suffering from similar mental health issues to get help and get better.

This person - whose identity I don't know with certainty, but it's one of two, to 95%CI - has been playing this game for at least two decades. They've contacted my family multiple times; one of them spent a few years soliciting nudes from my then-
underage daughter. They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now is partially compromised; I genuinely
have no idea how they even knew where I was, let alone who I was with, as the two of us go quite far back and have mutual acquaintances, and we both were very much not interested in any of them (including members of my family) know of the connection, but
they were in my roommate's ear within a week or so of my moving in here.

There are at least two people involved here who are pathologically obsessed with me. One of them has encouraged the other to believe that I'm posting here under all these sockpuppets and playing all these games but the truth is I've been trying to shake
the stink of this dump out of my hair for basically two decades now.

I suspect the biggest problem is that many years ago I ended up jaw-flapping my way into the wrestling business where I had a great time and met some famous people, and they wanted that but didn't have any of the necessary skills or attributes to make it
happen. And I walked away. I've been focused mostly on political activism and writing since then, and haven't looked back.

I had believed that my increasing difficulty in finding any job that involves so much as a cursory background check was related to that activity - leftist anti-capitalist anti-corporate authoritarian with a personality and solid stage presence, if I'm an
employer I can understand how I wouldn't hire that guy he's gonna come in and unionize my shop and be a rabble-rouser, turn us in to OSHA for cutting corners or whatever. Hell, he's "ANTIFA," and "we all know" they're "terrorists." Cost of doing
business; if you're gonna fight city hall, you gotta expect city hall's gonna fight back. I'm fighting plutocracy and oligarchy and the rise of American fascism and ultimately capitalism itself - it's an unsustainable poison in our culture and world,
compromising integrity and creating conflict of interest in everything it touches including health care, education, media, and criminal justice - and it stands to reason that those who are participating in capitalism would not want to help fund that
because they see it as a threat to their way of life (which it is, because collectively our way of life is shit and has to change or we're just not gonna last much longer). So I kind of just went 'eh,' took the hit, kept up my work, and have relied on
crowdfunding and what little menial labor work I could find to survive.

A couple of days ago, on a whim, I googled my full name, and found this ungodly shitpile with my name all over it, stretching back decades. It's not unintentional that my full name is used so frequently; the entire point of that is to do precisely what
has been done, which is to ensure that anyone googling me runs smack into a litany of supposed offenses ranging from farting in church to grand larceny to child abuse to DUI. It shows up before anything, including my own websites.

This is why I've spent the last fifteen years or so having great interviews and feeling like I probably had a gig, only to get that classic phone call of Jim Crow and other sub-surface discrimination: "sorry, we found another candidate." This is why I
don't have a gig now with someone like Progress Michigan or the ACLU or the campaigns of progressive candidates like Sanders or Tlaib.

In the main these people can't stand me because they wish they had the spine to BE me, to face all the crap that's been piled on and survive and keep fighting, because they know they wouldn't be able to. This is why one of them encouraged me to have
myself committed - all in "friendship" and "concern" of course - because they've been 5150'd multiple times and they're pissed that I haven't. There are other things that I'm not going to go into detail about here and now, for reasons of my own...but
those reasons aren't to hide anything about myself beyond what I'm doing right now aside from writing this message.

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," there have been 160+ conversations in this group about me *this year*. You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," these people know so much about me and my life - I've never
mentioned my roommate's name in public, and neither has she.

It started off, some 25+ years ago, being a bunch of dumbasses playing wrassler on the internet, cutting stupid promos and pretending to be all that stuff for giggles. Then a few people started crossing lines, interfering with people's jobs (the first
time it happened to me was in 1997 I think, at NCSU). Then when those targeted swung back and landed a few hits of their own, the psychos really lost it and escalated. As I said above, eventually it got to the point where it wasn't worth participating
given the level of BS in unrelated life that it created, and I walked away.

There's nothing a narcissist hates more than being ignored, and it appears at least two - possibly more, I have no way of knowing for sure, that's part of their game - narcissists have made me the focus of blame for their failed and miserable lives, and
have worked quite a bit harder than I'd realized up until the last couple of days to ensure my life was just as failed and miserable as theirs. Except unlike them, I don't have a trail of insecure but affluent women stretching back over the last three
decades that I've stolen from and beat on and abused; I stopped dating in March of 2001 for various reasons, all of them related to not wanting to get involved in a relationship again until I could do so in a healthy way and get my insecurities and fears
and such under control. Unlike them, I admit I *have* a daughter. Unlike them, I haven't made up stories about joining the military to cover having my ass rubber-roomed. Unlike them, I haven't made the last twenty years about making other people's
lives miserable and hurting people because it's the only thing I know how to do.

And unlike them, I'm not cross-posting all of this to every troll farm and harassment base etc. I can find in the hopes of recruiting them to join in on the harassment.

I haven't "reinvented myself," ever. I haven't even cut my hair in almost 15 years and other than a lot of gray and some extra pounds look exactly like I did when I was 20. Other than pissing around on Usenet back in the mid-late 90s and early 2000s (
as above), I've never tried to hide my identity or pretend to be anyone else but who I am. I haven't "deleted my work" or tried to "hide" thing - everything I've ever put on the web is readily available through the wayback machine. That said, I do tend
to block and ban harassers and the kinds of wet-fart personalities who do psycho shit like posting lie after lie after lie to comment sections on my social media pages and then claim I'm "hiding something" when I boot them.

That's part of their problem, you see - they hide behind technology and arcane systems that are easy to spoof and hide your identity on, and that most people including the vast majority of law enforcement don't understand. I just got off the phone with
MIAG, and I had to explain to them what USENET is. Their answer is "well just have your lawyer (hah!) contact google and delete the messages." The girl on the phone at the FBI was audibly eyerolling as soon as I said "internet."

Understand that *I am an antifascist, anti-authoritarian, left-wing small-L libertarian, i.e. "ansoc," anarcho-socialist. I believe the only valid functions of government are regulation of commerce and industry, and protecting the general public from
psychotic losers like this.

Unfortunately we don't live in that world. Indeed, to a certain point they even have "the right" to say what they want. Of course that right ends firmly at slander, but that doesn't really matter when you can't even canonically identify who's involved,
now does it? What am I gonna do, sue a sockpuppet?

These people want to see me ended because they can't live up to who I am at my worst, and they don't even want you to see me at my best. That's why there are 160 conversations about me in six months, in a newsgroup I haven't given serious thought in
nearly twenty years.

A few months ago, one of the primary actors, who I believe is in a major decompensation event after I finally told them to get the hell out of my world and stay out, started feeding a random FB dick I was arguing with this information, and in doing so
provided me with sufficient evidence to be 99.8% certain who that person was - and I'd suspected them for a very long time, suspicions that were also confirmed by various behavioral tics and such in our interactions over time. Then when I found all this
a couple of days ago, it got to 99.9.

There's really only a few people in the world who have both the technical know-how and the motivation to do this to me. I can think of exactly two by name...and I'm beginning to suspect that much of the alleged involvement of Dink in all of this is also
a smokescreen because he's such a moron it's easy to think he'd be responsible. And I think he's got his hands in, because he's a psycho loser and we've all known that for twenty-five years, but frankly he appears to have enough going on in his life to
simply not have this much free time on his hands, and if he offered to just let it all drop and walk away...well, I'd be doing the same thing I have been, which is forgetting about him (at least until a "friend" shows up pretending to be him and brings
it up again).

But it's not all him, and I suspect he's been manipulated a bit by the other one...just like pretty much everybody dogpiling these threads has. Of course I can't "prove," because that's the point. To make me seem "paranoid" and "delusional" and maybe
get frustrated enough to get my ass thrown in a rubber room like he did.

In the end, they hate my spirit because they're ashamed of themselves - far too ashamed to admit to anyone who they are or what they do, or to come out from behind the sockpuppets and fake accounts and AI-generated bullshit - and they see me being
ashamed and owning it, knowing they don't have the guts to measure up to that, and since they can't rise to my level, all they have left is to drag me down to theirs...and it's literally driving them nuts that they can't.

I know what my sins and crimes are, and I've been quite public about owning up to them - as you can clearly see. Have I posted a fourth-step inventory to the world? No. It's not necessary and it would only serve to open old wounds and possibly cause
harm in the very act of trying to reduce or make amends for that harm. That's why the 9th step includes the caveat "...wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others." Sometimes it's not possible, sometimes the attempt would do
further harm. There are plenty of such things that have been done to me, as well, and there won't be amends made for those. Some amends can't be made, some mistakes can't be un-made, and sometimes the only thing you can do is say "well, that sucked,"
and keep on moving forward and living your life.

That's what I've been trying to do for twenty years, and these weirdos just will. not. let. go.

I've done everything I could to complete that step. I've made my amends to those I've harmed whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others; and I've changed my behavior to avoid harming anyone else - including flat-out avoiding any
sort of physical relationship for 18 years. I've tried to help others. In some cases, that help was turned on me and shoved into my back like a blade, but that's gonna happen sometimes when you're trying to help people who are addicts and suffering
with serious mental illness and dysfunction.

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to
sanity and hope; to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to do. There's nothing
else I *can* do in most cases short of hara-kiri, and while I live with major depressive disorder and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of killing myself at least once, it's just thoughts. I'm not going to do that, because I still have
good work to do in this world, and I'm not going to let anyone, including myself, stop me from doing it.

And that, more than anything else, is why a couple of badly broken, deranged, and psychotic narcissists have been up my ass like a colonoscopy for twenty years.

Anyone who is buying in to this is being played for a patsy by a psycho, and the psycho isn't me.

I don't hide. I don't sock up and pretend to be other people. I don't work back-channel and in the shadows, dealing in rumor and innuendo and faked screenshots and exploiting addiction and desperation and even just the petty venality of punch-down
trolling to hurt people who I know I have no valid reason to hurt.

I'm no prince, no messiah, no "great good man." I've done some pretty rotten things in my life, and I'm doing what I can to balance that.

These people don't want that to happen, because if it does then they're left with nothing but to look at their own failure to address their own issues and know that the failure is indeed their own.

Don't get sucked in to it. You're being used and manipulated by at least one, probably two, and maybe several psychotic narcissists who have been caught in a feedback loop of blaming me for their problems for over half their lives.

Now I'm leaving again, and I don't intend to be back. Stop falling for this "oh it's JH in a sock" shit. It isn't. If I've got something to say, I'll say it loud and clear with my own face and voice, just as I always have.

I hope those of you who have spent half your lives up my ass manage to get the help you so clearly and desperately need.

PS: I'm not naming the "friend" because I'm not going to give them anything to hang their own lawsuit on, just as I didn't interfere in their abusive relationships because if I did, they'd blame me for those relationships collapsing. You all know who I
mean.

Best,
John Henry DeJong
Kalamazoo, MI

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In article <162ccb3a-2f61-4611-917e-cf38c72015fen@googlegroups.com>, johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 10:05:26�AM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
news:tiMrM.197045$edH5....@fx11.iad:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

"Checkmate <moderat...@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave...@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f18dc08...@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading posts >>> by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say the
following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim. So >>>> > how best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will read! >>>> >
That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but it's
hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So are
a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners selfish,
please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll realize,
it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a clearinghouse, >>>> helping guide those in need to net.resources: for digging
themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks... we
have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in over
4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of 2018.
Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15 years
before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a well
despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the content.
His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after he
was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used cigarettes
he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide and
confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total of 10
dollars for the month of June.

I hope the healing message I sent him didn't scare him off.

He could be someone someday. Who knows?

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds of
hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out on
cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking heavily
on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill myself via
narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just shoot myself
in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in which my posts
weren't fortified with at least three different drugs, and often
twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

You don't have John himself posting to the froup. (Meanwhile,
Perfessor Mojibake can't keep from scribbling in a.c.)

But we do! His Laz Mann sockpuppet posts every now and then to shill and beg for money.

Suspecting you don't have John himself posting in RSPW because
his is a suspected anxious-avoidant attachment
strategy. (I wouldn't expect him to post, it's too
hostile for him.)

No, it's because John's last explicit appearance as Net.Bastard was such
an overwhelming failure that he has no desire to own up to his rants.
He's stopped in and attempted to be someone else since. Don't
overanalyze it.

All of this is bullshit. This person - who is almost certainly not Dave Zimmerman, as I can't recall a single time Dave and I ever had hostility nor can I think of any reason he'd be involved; the last I heard anything about him he'd supposedly moved

to Australia or something after a woman in the UK he was trying to hook up with dumped him - has spent the last twenty-five years or so hiding behind sockpuppets and recruiting petit trolls and harassers to do his dirty
work for him, while hiding behind an army of sockpuppets and fake names and leveraging the various helpful aspects of different websites and social media networks to conceal his identity. They know I tend to REALLY piss off a small set of folks, and
they feed those folks and encourage them to escalate and propagate all the BS, so as to ensure nobody can be held directly responsible for any of it.

This is the first time I've posted to this group since 2018. The only reason I'm here now is because I googled my name on a whim and realized that this is a huge part of the reason I can't get a job at all beyond schtupping canned goods at a grocery

store or digging ditches, neither of which I'm physically able to do anymore due to various wear and tear related to aging - I'm fifty-two.

When I stopped by here at the end of 2018 - at the encouragement of a "friend" - I was here for half an hour, took one look at the place, and went "no fuckin' way, the few people left here are completely out of their tree, fuck. all. this." That was

after having left back in 2005 because I founded a non-profit theater group and didn't want this person and their fellow travelers hassling a bunch of kids.

I've never made a secret of my "secrets." I was strung out on coke for a dozen years, up until '99. I was a physically abusive boyfriend and father; the latter debatable even by current standards (this is a country that loves corporal punishment!),

and I've been very open about that in public in the hope that by doing so I could encourage others suffering from similar mental health issues to get help and get better.

This person - whose identity I don't know with certainty, but it's one of two, to 95%CI - has been playing this game for at least two decades. They've contacted my family multiple times; one of them spent a few years soliciting nudes from my then-

underage daughter. They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now is
partially compromised; I genuinely have no idea how they even knew where I was, let alone who I was with, as the two of us go quite far back and have mutual acquaintances, and we both were very much not interested in any of them (including members of my
family) know of the connection, but they were in my roommate's ear within a week or so of my moving in here.

There are at least two people involved here who are pathologically obsessed with me. One of them has encouraged the other to believe that I'm posting here under all these sockpuppets and playing all these games but the truth is I've been trying to

shake the stink of this dump out of my hair for basically two decades now.

I suspect the biggest problem is that many years ago I ended up jaw-flapping my way into the wrestling business where I had a great time and met some famous people, and they wanted that but didn't have any of the necessary skills or attributes to make

it happen. And I walked away. I've been focused mostly on political activism and writing since then, and haven't looked back.

I had believed that my increasing difficulty in finding any job that involves so much as a cursory background check was related to that activity - leftist anti-capitalist anti-corporate authoritarian with a personality and solid stage presence, if I'm

an employer I can understand how I wouldn't hire that guy he's gonna come in and unionize my shop and be a rabble-rouser, turn us in to OSHA for cutting corners or whatever. Hell, he's "ANTIFA," and "we all know" they're
"terrorists." Cost of doing business; if you're gonna fight city hall, you gotta expect city hall's gonna fight back. I'm fighting plutocracy and oligarchy and the rise of American fascism and ultimately capitalism itself - it's an unsustainable poison
in our culture and world, compromising integrity and creating conflict of interest in everything it touches including health care, education, media, and criminal justice - and it stands to reason that those who are
participating in capitalism would not want to help fund that because they see it as a threat to their way of life (which it is, because collectively our way of life is shit and has to change or we're just not gonna last much longer). So I kind of just
went 'eh,' took the hit, kept up my work, and have relied on crowdfunding and what little menial labor work I could find to survive.

A couple of days ago, on a whim, I googled my full name, and found this ungodly shitpile with my name all over it, stretching back decades. It's not unintentional that my full name is used so frequently; the entire point of that is to do precisely

what has been done, which is to ensure that anyone googling me runs smack into a litany of supposed offenses ranging from farting in church to grand larceny to child abuse to DUI. It shows up before anything, including my
own websites.

This is why I've spent the last fifteen years or so having great interviews and feeling like I probably had a gig, only to get that classic phone call of Jim Crow and other sub-surface discrimination: "sorry, we found another candidate." This is why

I don't have a gig now with someone like Progress Michigan or the ACLU or the campaigns of progressive candidates like Sanders or Tlaib.

In the main these people can't stand me because they wish they had the spine to BE me, to face all the crap that's been piled on and survive and keep fighting, because they know they wouldn't be able to. This is why one of them encouraged me to have

myself committed - all in "friendship" and "concern" of course - because they've been 5150'd multiple times and they're pissed that I haven't. There are other things that I'm not going to go into detail about here and now,
for reasons of my own...but those reasons aren't to hide anything about myself beyond what I'm doing right now aside from writing this message.

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," there have been 160+ conversations in this group about me *this year*. You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," these people know so much about me and my life - I've never

mentioned my roommate's name in public, and neither has she.

It started off, some 25+ years ago, being a bunch of dumbasses playing wrassler on the internet, cutting stupid promos and pretending to be all that stuff for giggles. Then a few people started crossing lines, interfering with people's jobs (the first

time it happened to me was in 1997 I think, at NCSU). Then when those targeted swung back and landed a few hits of their own, the psychos really lost it and escalated. As I said above, eventually it got to the point
where it wasn't worth participating given the level of BS in unrelated life that it created, and I walked away.

There's nothing a narcissist hates more than being ignored, and it appears at least two - possibly more, I have no way of knowing for sure, that's part of their game - narcissists have made me the focus of blame for their failed and miserable lives,

and have worked quite a bit harder than I'd realized up until the last couple of days to ensure my life was just as failed and miserable as theirs. Except unlike them, I don't have a trail of insecure but affluent women
stretching back over the last three decades that I've stolen from and beat on and abused; I stopped dating in March of 2001 for various reasons, all of them related to not wanting to get involved in a relationship again until I could do so in a healthy
way and get my insecurities and fears and such under control. Unlike them, I admit I *have* a daughter. Unlike them, I haven't made up stories about joining the military to cover having my ass rubber-roomed. Unlike them,
I haven't made the last twenty years about making other people's lives miserable and hurting people because it's the only thing I know how to do.

And unlike them, I'm not cross-posting all of this to every troll farm and harassment base etc. I can find in the hopes of recruiting them to join in on the harassment.

I haven't "reinvented myself," ever. I haven't even cut my hair in almost 15 years and other than a lot of gray and some extra pounds look exactly like I did when I was 20. Other than pissing around on Usenet back in the mid-late 90s and early 2000s (

as above), I've never tried to hide my identity or pretend to be anyone else but who I am. I haven't "deleted my work" or tried to "hide" thing - everything I've ever put on the web is readily available through the
wayback machine. That said, I do tend to block and ban harassers and the kinds of wet-fart personalities who do psycho shit like posting lie after lie after lie to comment sections on my social media pages and then claim I'm "hiding something" when I
boot them.

That's part of their problem, you see - they hide behind technology and arcane systems that are easy to spoof and hide your identity on, and that most people including the vast majority of law enforcement don't understand. I just got off the phone

with MIAG, and I had to explain to them what USENET is. Their answer is "well just have your lawyer (hah!) contact google and delete the messages." The girl on the phone at the FBI was audibly eyerolling as soon as I said
"internet."

Understand that *I am an antifascist, anti-authoritarian, left-wing small-L libertarian, i.e. "ansoc," anarcho-socialist. I believe the only valid functions of government are regulation of commerce and industry, and protecting the general public from

psychotic losers like this.

Unfortunately we don't live in that world. Indeed, to a certain point they even have "the right" to say what they want. Of course that right ends firmly at slander, but that doesn't really matter when you can't even canonically identify who's

involved, now does it? What am I gonna do, sue a sockpuppet?

These people want to see me ended because they can't live up to who I am at my worst, and they don't even want you to see me at my best. That's why there are 160 conversations about me in six months, in a newsgroup I haven't given serious thought in

nearly twenty years.

A few months ago, one of the primary actors, who I believe is in a major decompensation event after I finally told them to get the hell out of my world and stay out, started feeding a random FB dick I was arguing with this information, and in doing so

provided me with sufficient evidence to be 99.8% certain who that person was - and I'd suspected them for a very long time, suspicions that were also confirmed by various behavioral tics and such in our interactions over
time. Then when I found all this a couple of days ago, it got to 99.9.

There's really only a few people in the world who have both the technical know-how and the motivation to do this to me. I can think of exactly two by name...and I'm beginning to suspect that much of the alleged involvement of Dink in all of this is

also a smokescreen because he's such a moron it's easy to think he'd be responsible. And I think he's got his hands in, because he's a psycho loser and we've all known that for twenty-five years, but frankly he appears to
have enough going on in his life to simply not have this much free time on his hands, and if he offered to just let it all drop and walk away...well, I'd be doing the same thing I have been, which is forgetting about him (at least until a "friend" shows
up pretending to be him and brings it up again).

But it's not all him, and I suspect he's been manipulated a bit by the other one...just like pretty much everybody dogpiling these threads has. Of course I can't "prove," because that's the point. To make me seem "paranoid" and "delusional" and maybe

get frustrated enough to get my ass thrown in a rubber room like he did.

In the end, they hate my spirit because they're ashamed of themselves - far too ashamed to admit to anyone who they are or what they do, or to come out from behind the sockpuppets and fake accounts and AI-generated bullshit - and they see me being

ashamed and owning it, knowing they don't have the guts to measure up to that, and since they can't rise to my level, all they have left is to drag me down to theirs...and it's literally driving them nuts that they can't.

I know what my sins and crimes are, and I've been quite public about owning up to them - as you can clearly see. Have I posted a fourth-step inventory to the world? No. It's not necessary and it would only serve to open old wounds and possibly cause

harm in the very act of trying to reduce or make amends for that harm. That's why the 9th step includes the caveat "...wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others." Sometimes it's not possible,
sometimes the attempt would do further harm. There are plenty of such things that have been done to me, as well, and there won't be amends made for those. Some amends can't be made, some mistakes can't be un-made, and sometimes the only thing you can
do is say "well, that sucked," and keep on moving forward and living your life.

That's what I've been trying to do for twenty years, and these weirdos just will. not. let. go.

I've done everything I could to complete that step. I've made my amends to those I've harmed whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others; and I've changed my behavior to avoid harming anyone else - including flat-out avoiding

any sort of physical relationship for 18 years. I've tried to help others. In some cases, that help was turned on me and shoved into my back like a blade, but that's gonna happen sometimes when you're trying to help
people who are addicts and suffering with serious mental illness and dysfunction.

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways

to sanity and hope; to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've
learned to do. There's nothing else I *can* do in most cases short of hara-kiri, and while I live with major depressive disorder and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of killing myself at least once, it's just thoughts. I'm not going to
do that, because I still have good work to do in this world, and I'm not going to let anyone, including myself, stop me from doing it.

And that, more than anything else, is why a couple of badly broken, deranged, and psychotic narcissists have been up my ass like a colonoscopy for twenty years.

Anyone who is buying in to this is being played for a patsy by a psycho, and the psycho isn't me.

I don't hide. I don't sock up and pretend to be other people. I don't work back-channel and in the shadows, dealing in rumor and innuendo and faked screenshots and exploiting addiction and desperation and even just the petty venality of punch-down

trolling to hurt people who I know I have no valid reason to hurt.

I'm no prince, no messiah, no "great good man." I've done some pretty rotten things in my life, and I'm doing what I can to balance that.

These people don't want that to happen, because if it does then they're left with nothing but to look at their own failure to address their own issues and know that the failure is indeed their own.

Don't get sucked in to it. You're being used and manipulated by at least one, probably two, and maybe several psychotic narcissists who have been caught in a feedback loop of blaming me for their problems for over half their lives.

Now I'm leaving again, and I don't intend to be back. Stop falling for this "oh it's JH in a sock" shit. It isn't. If I've got something to say, I'll say it loud and clear with my own face and voice, just as I always have.

I hope those of you who have spent half your lives up my ass manage to get the help you so clearly and desperately need.

PS: I'm not naming the "friend" because I'm not going to give them anything to hang their own lawsuit on, just as I didn't interfere in their abusive relationships because if I did, they'd blame me for those relationships collapsing. You all know who

I mean.

Best,

I'm 70 and can still work. I just don't have to.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0-bb40-0e9acc4715b6n@googlegroups.com>, johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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On Wednesday, July 12, 2023 at 4:04:34 PM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
news:lQtrM.102149$eGef....@fx47.iad:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim. So how
best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will read!

That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but it's
hard work.

John has no shame. If even 10% of the abuses he's done to women are
true, he has none.

John filed a restraining order against shame many years ago. It's filed in the courts next to his restraining order against personal hygiene and self-awareness.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So
are a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners
selfish, please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

John threatens or hints at suicide fairly often. However someone
informed me that John has either closed, made private or deleted his FarceTw*t pages of mooch and his other begging avenues (AKA the
webshites of scrounging) are 404.

Careful. If he finds out you wrote that, he might make another suicide threat.

That implies another hissy fit rather than offing himself but the latter
is always possible. For the record, I consider suicide a selfish gesture
but in his case I'll make an exception. People tend to graviate away
from him eventually and it's simply his way of trying to get attention.

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when dealing
with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he watches the first
5 minutes of that video, because he'll realize, it fits him to a T.

John is one of the least self-aware persons you'll run into. That was stressed to me by at least one other person and I came to the conclusion that it was an astute observation.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

I see some of what Heidi Priebe is saying in myself in that I'm my own
worst critic. But there's also a sense of accomplishment in overcoming
it instead of wallowing it it or using it to mooch from others.

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a clearinghouse, helping guide those in need to net.resources: for digging
themselves out of their respective holes?) 🤔️

Don't worry, he'll be back. The grasshoppers always seem to respawn to
have something for the ants to laugh at. John is constantly deleting his idiocy and rants, so it's not the first time he's tried to reinvent
himself. A pity he only has the same old and very tired dance steps.

I prefer to save my compassion and charity for those that need and appreciate it rather than take it for granted.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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In article <0bcefce7-061c-4fd5-846a-70e57d7974ffn@googlegroups.com>, johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 3:05:55�PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

Ooo, Mr. Power and control's gonna be billy badass and order me to do what I'd have already done an hour ago if he wasn't continuing to respond.

But I'm the one who "lacks self-awareness." FFS.

Yet here you are. Do you want me to allow you to leave?

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 3:05:55 PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

Ooo, Mr. Power and control's gonna be billy badass and order me to do what I'd have already done an hour ago if he wasn't continuing to respond.

But I'm the one who "lacks self-awareness." FFS.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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XPost: alt.checkmate

"Checkmate <moderator-wida@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave.keeting@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f19cbe063d1aec398c4c6@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading posts
by Checkmate.

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 14:02:20 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 had the audacity to say the following:

"Checkmate <moderator-wida@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave.keeting@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f1916f6ee92ae598c4c5@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading
posts by Checkmate.

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 had
the audacity to say the following:

"Checkmate <moderator-wida@baseball.bat>"
<oo.dave.keeting@ass.worm> wrote in
news:MPG.3f18dc08fe8838998c4c4@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading
posts by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say
the following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a
victim. So how best to do that? Start off with a rant that
nobody will read!

That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but
it's hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So
are a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners
selfish, please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll
realize, it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a
clearinghouse, helping guide those in need to net.resources:
for digging themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks...
we have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in
over 4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of
2018. Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15
years before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a
well despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the
content. His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the
group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy
are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after
he was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used
cigarettes he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide
and confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total
of 10 dollars for the month of June.

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds
of hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out
on cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking
heavily on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill
myself via narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just
shoot myself in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in
which my posts weren't fortified with at least three different
drugs, and often twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

He's quite the drama queen and certainly one of the better kooks,
but all kooks are "special". It's unusual to have one post a
goodbye rant, and then actually leave. We get the ones who
probably want to leave, but they just can't.

This kook is no different, he'll be back in some pseudonym and
likely will be whining about the evil people holding him back until
he's been finally evicted to the streets by the current person he's
mooching from. His idea was to have his "followers" send money to
help pay the woman housing him for some of the extra expenses that
having a mooch sitting on his ass all day would entail. The response
was 10 bucks for June. Thus the July hissy fit.

Mind you, she's been diagnosed with a terminal illness, gets
treatment that is quite stressful and still works a job. John? Don't
be silly! His ego trip as the savior of man is his job. He's working
for YOU!

How many kooks in a.c. have a vimeo of them losing a fight to a
broken monitor? The FB parody pages are gold. You simply can't top
those. You can send a few kooks this way while John is sulking.
They're a poor substitute for John but it's cheap entertainment at
their expense.

Bring on your kooks.

Be careful what you wish for, although I don't think any of our
current kooks could be driven to providing meltdown videos. There was
Emmett Gully, but he finally broke the habit and left. That was
probably the smartest move he could have made. He had a lot of real
issues that were only aggravated by Usenet.

John hasn't been locked up for multiple crimes like Emmett but what I've
heard is that's something that should have happened.

Emmett was begging in RSPW a few years back and got no traction, so
whatever he's doing now is likely "scut work" that's beneath John[1].

RSPW has seen their share of kooks, nothing should faze those that are
left. John will be back and mooching soon enough. Feel free to crosspost
all kooks to RSPW.

We'll try to return them in the same condition and all that.

[1] Yes, John actually said that. He also put up a video about why he
doesn't get a job a few days back. It's likely gone at this point.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 1:57:31 PM UTC-4, "the real????" John Henry wrote:

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 10:05:26 AM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
news:tiMrM.197045$edH5....@fx11.iad:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

"Checkmate <moderat...@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave...@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f18dc08...@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading posts >>> by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say the >>> following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim. So >>>> > how best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will read! >>>> >
That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but it's >>>> hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So are
a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners selfish,
please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll realize, >>>> it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a clearinghouse, >>>> helping guide those in need to net.resources: for digging
themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks... we
have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in over
4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of 2018.
Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15 years
before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a well
despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the content. >> His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after he
was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used cigarettes
he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide and >> confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total of 10
dollars for the month of June.

I hope the healing message I sent him didn't scare him off.

He could be someone someday. Who knows?

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds of >> hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out on
cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking heavily
on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill myself via
narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just shoot myself
in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in which my posts
weren't fortified with at least three different drugs, and often
twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

You don't have John himself posting to the froup. (Meanwhile,
Perfessor Mojibake can't keep from scribbling in a.c.)

But we do! His Laz Mann sockpuppet posts every now and then to shill and beg for money.

Suspecting you don't have John himself posting in RSPW because
his is a suspected anxious-avoidant attachment
strategy. (I wouldn't expect him to post, it's too
hostile for him.)

No, it's because John's last explicit appearance as Net.Bastard was such an overwhelming failure that he has no desire to own up to his rants.
He's stopped in and attempted to be someone else since. Don't
overanalyze it.

All of this is bullshit.

Oh I hope this is the "real" JHD and not some clown impersonating him. If it is "him", then HI, JO-JO! REMEMBER ME? THE BOOGEYMAN? The dude who didn't but you said did get you shitcanned from Lyft for driving with your penis out?

This person - who is almost certainly not Dave Zimmerman, as I can't recall a single time Dave and I ever had hostility nor can I think of any reason he'd be involved;

Oh, I'm kinda sorta pretty sure that it's him. Mostly because he does such a good job pointing out that you are a self-centered, clueless asshole.

the last I heard anything about him he'd supposedly moved to Australia or something after a woman in the UK he was trying to hook up with dumped him - has spent the last twenty-five years or so hiding behind sockpuppets and recruiting petit trolls and

harassers to do his dirty work for him, while hiding behind an army of sockpuppets and fake names and leveraging the various helpful aspects of different websites and social media networks to conceal his identity.

Punctuation is your friend. Also sounds like what your buddy Chadlee "Lee" Anvil Bryant does and has done.
Well. Except the recruiting part. Since nobody wants to 'work' for him and he so easily comes across as an even bigger douche than you.

They know I tend to REALLY piss off a small set of folks, and they feed those folks and encourage them to escalate and propagate all the BS, so as to ensure nobody can be held directly responsible for any of it.

Hey John, have you met my friend Mr. Para Noya? He's from Nepal. Real nice guy. Once climbed half of Mount Everest.

This is the first time I've posted to this group since 2018.

Ooo! Ooo! Are we going to get another video of John Henry v. computer monitor? I always wanted to see a rematch!

The only reason I'm here now is because

...you are a self-centered, narcissistic, bullshitting loser who was probably tipped off by your pal "Lee." Either that or you have been lurking for weeks or months.

I googled my name on a whim and realized that this is a huge part of the reason I can't get a job at all

Actually, the "huge part" is because you refuse to fucking find one.
You come up with some bullshit excuse every single time the subject is breeched -- which is mostly by you.

YOU think yourself as some sort of savior-like, one-man-FOX-news-channel and that everyone should give you money so you don't have to actually work.
YOU try to pass yourself off as some sort of untouchable, god-like figure who knows it all but is never listened to by anyone.
I guess what I am trying to say is, you are SOL because of, well, yourself.

beyond schtupping canned goods at a grocery store or digging ditches, neither of which I'm physically able to do anymore due to various wear and tear related to aging - I'm fifty-two.

I'm 47 and if I had to do it, I would do either of those jobs. I have had servers (waiters) who have been in their 60s and 70s. You are full of shit trying to blame your laziness on age.

When I stopped by here at the end of 2018 - at the encouragement of a "friend" -

Why not just say his name? Chadlee Anvil Bryant, now "Lee" Bryant attempted to restart his "life" because his real full name is all over the Internet screaming his insanity & psychosis..

I was here for half an hour, took one look at the place, and went "no fuckin' way,

Coward.

the few people left here are completely out of their tree, fuck. all. this."

You do realize that your (ahem) "friend" was one of those 'completely out of their tree.'?

That was after having left back in 2005 because I founded a non-profit theater group and didn't want this person and their fellow travelers hassling a bunch of kids.

You? Founding a non-profit theater group? That's about as believable as Michael Jackson founding a daycare center.

I've never made a secret of my "secrets." I was strung out on coke for a dozen years, up until '99.

Oh I think it went a little past 1999, John....

I was a physically abusive boyfriend and father;

So this is why your daughter doesn't give a shit about you right now.

the latter debatable even by current standards (this is a country that loves corporal punishment!), and I've been very open about that in public in the hope that by doing so I could encourage others suffering from similar mental health issues to get

help and get better.


You and mental health need a little time apart, Jo-Jo.

This person - whose identity I don't know with certainty, but it's one of two, to 95%CI - has been playing this game for at least two decades.

Ooo! Ooo! Is one of them me? Teacher please call on me! I'm ever so smart!
By the way. Can't be a "person" if you think it is more than one.

They've contacted my family multiple times; one of them spent a few years soliciting nudes from my then-underage daughter.

But did she send them?

They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current roommate before anyone even knew I was living here.

Um...how is that even possible, John?
See, statements like THAT are why people point out your paranoia and insanity.

There is a very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now is partially compromised;

Mr. Para Noya had to go back to Nepal, John. But he sends greetings from his friend, Ima Kray Z. Parson.

I genuinely have no idea how they even knew where I was, let alone who I was with, as the two of us go quite far back and have mutual acquaintances, and we both were very much not interested in any of them (including members of my family) know of the

connection, but they were in my roommate's ear within a week or so of my moving in here.


But you just said that it was BEFORE you moved there.

There are at least two people involved here who are pathologically obsessed with me.

Oh, boy! Narcissism! Well, it's a change from paranoia, at least.

One of them has encouraged the other to believe that I'm posting here under all these sockpuppets and playing all these games but the truth is I've been trying to shake the stink of this dump out of my hair for basically two decades now.

DumpSTER. DumpSTER, John. You know--the one you lost the fight against via the monitor?

I suspect the biggest problem is

Well, let's be honest...you have so many of them that to find one as 'biggest' isn't exactly easy.
Can we start with your delusional narcissism, and then move on to your paranoia, self-centered behavioral bullshit and begging?

that many years ago I ended up jaw-flapping my way into the wrestling business where I had a great time and met some famous people,

I remember you claiming to have done coke with the Hardy Boys. Or was that the Brady Bunch?

and they wanted that but didn't have any of the necessary skills or attributes to make it happen. And I walked away. I've been focused mostly on political activism and writing since then, and haven't looked back.

Jo-Jo you never look back. It's one of your "problems." You really should tape a mirror to yourself.

I had believed that my increasing difficulty in finding any job that involves so much as a cursory background check was related to that activity -

...A stupid move.

leftist anti-capitalist anti-corporate authoritarian with a personality and solid stage presence, if I'm an employer I can understand how I wouldn't hire that guy he's gonna come in and unionize my shop and be a rabble-rouser, turn us in to OSHA for

cutting corners or whatever.


Where in the fuck are you applying?

Hell, he's "ANTIFA," and "we all know" they're "terrorists." Cost of doing business; if you're gonna fight city hall, you gotta expect city hall's gonna fight back.

You couldn't "fight city hall" if you were given boxing lessons by Mike Tyson.

I'm fighting plutocracy and oligarchy and the rise of American fascism and ultimately capitalism itself

No. No, you aren't.

- it's an unsustainable poison in our culture and world, compromising integrity and creating conflict of interest in everything it touches including health care, education, media, and criminal justice - and it stands to reason that those who are

participating in capitalism would not want to help fund that because they see it as a threat to their way of life (which it is, because collectively our way of life is shit and has to change or we're just not gonna last much longer). So I kind of just
went 'eh,' took the hit, kept up my work, and have relied on crowdfunding and what little menial labor work I could find to survive.


"People didn't give me money because they stupid."

A couple of days ago, on a whim, I googled my full name, and found this ungodly shitpile with my name all over it, stretching back decades.

...Guess whose fault that is?

It's not unintentional that my full name is used so frequently;

Well, John Henry DeJong, you could always change your name like your friend Chadlee Anvil Bryant did.

the entire point of that is to do precisely what has been done, which is to ensure that anyone googling me runs smack into a litany of supposed offenses ranging from farting in church to grand larceny to child abuse to DUI. It shows up before anything,

including my own websites.


I am agog and aghast.

This is why I've spent the last fifteen years or so having great interviews and feeling like I probably had a gig,

If you have been trying to "have a gig" for fifteen years, perhaps it is time you tried something else.

only to get that classic phone call of Jim Crow and other sub-surface discrimination: "sorry, we found another candidate."

um.....er.....ahhh....I can't figure out if you are being racist here, trying to blame your lack of employment ON something related to racism, being sarcastic or just...being whatever the hell are you being.

This is why I don't have a gig now with someone like Progress Michigan or the ACLU or the campaigns of progressive candidates like Sanders or Tlaib.

No. You don't have a "gig" with those because you lack qualifications, have a shitty resume, a piss poor personal attitude and you have almost no social skills in existence.

In the main these people can't stand me because they wish they had the spine to BE me,

"They didn't hire me because they didn't like me and because they wanted to BE me!"
If your narcissism was screaming any louder, someone would call the police.

to face all the crap that's been piled on and survive and keep fighting, because they know they wouldn't be able to.

"I DIDN'T WANT YOUR DUMB OLD STUPID JOB ANYWAY!"

This is why one of them encouraged me to have myself committed -

Er, I'm pretty sure there were more reasons than one for someone to encourage you to commit yourself to a mental hospital.

all in "friendship" and "concern" of course - because they've been 5150'd multiple times and they're pissed that I haven't. There are other things that I'm not going to go into detail about here and now, for reasons of my own...but those reasons aren't

to hide anything about myself beyond what I'm doing right now aside from writing this message.


Ah. The old troll / Chadlee trick, "I know a lot but I won't tell you" routine.

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid,"

There is no "if" in that sentence, John.

there have been 160+ conversations in this group about me *this year*.

Because people are mocking you, not praising you.
You seem to enjoy publicly acting stupid.

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid,"

Again. No "if."

these people know so much about me and my life - I've never mentioned my roommate's name in public, and neither has she.

But now you give a clue that it is a female.

It started off, some 25+ years ago, being a bunch of dumbasses playing wrassler on the internet, cutting stupid promos and pretending to be all that stuff for giggles.

Does that include your infamous "posedown," or the time you posted a photo of your penis to prove you were getting oral sex from a prostitute?

Then a few people started crossing lines, interfering with people's jobs (the first time it happened to me was in 1997 I think, at NCSU).

Ah yes, the infamous "John-thinks-he-is-untouchable" incident. Well. One of them, anyway.
Remember when you impersonated the webmaster of the Bellsouth website, in an attempt to get me TOSsed? You prick.

Then when those targeted swung back and landed a few hits of their own, the psychos really lost it and escalated.

Interesting that you call yourself a psycho.

As I said above, eventually it got to the point where it wasn't worth participating given the level of BS in unrelated life that it created, and I walked away.

More like stumbled away drunk.

There's nothing a narcissist hates more than being ignored, and it appears at least two - possibly more, I have no way of knowing for sure, that's part of their game - narcissists have made me the focus of blame for their failed and miserable lives,

and have worked quite a bit harder than I'd realized up until the last couple of days to ensure my life was just as failed and miserable as theirs


./...Something a narcissist would write.

. Except unlike them, I don't have a trail of insecure but affluent women stretching back over the last three decades that I've stolen from and beat on and abused;

Only the last two decades.

I stopped dating in March of 2001 for various reasons,

Bisexuality?

all of them related to not wanting to get involved in a relationship again until I could do so in a healthy way and get my insecurities and fears and such under control. Unlike them, I admit I *have* a daughter. Unlike them, I haven't made up stories

about joining the military to cover having my ass rubber-roomed.

Is that a swipe at Chadlee?

Unlike them, I haven't made the last twenty years about making other people's lives miserable and hurting people because it's the only thing I know how to do.

Is that ANOTHER swipe at Chadlee?

And unlike them, I'm not cross-posting all of this to every troll farm and harassment base etc. I can find in the hopes of recruiting them to join in on the harassment.

Is that a THIRD swipe at Chadlee?

I haven't "reinvented myself," ever.

Let's face it. Even if you did, you'd never get a patent.

I haven't even cut my hair in almost 15 years

Perhaps, oh, I don't know...this could be one of the reasons you keep getting turned down for jobs?

and other than a lot of gray and some extra pounds look exactly like I did when I was 20.

You look about as much as you did at 20 as Chadlee does when he was an infant. Well, scratch that. Chadlee was a fat turd even then.

Other than pissing around on Usenet back in the mid-late 90s and early 2000s (as above), I've never tried to hide my identity or pretend to be anyone else but who I am.

Except webmaster@bellsouth.net

I haven't "deleted my work" or tried to "hide" thing

Then explain your latest "disappearance" on YouTube and Facebook, among other platforms.

- everything I've ever put on the web is readily available through the wayback machine.

Um. Wayback does what it does for a reason.
You don't and can't say you haven't "disappeared: just because wayback has it.

That said, I do tend to block and ban harassers and the kinds of wet-fart personalities who do psycho shit like posting lie after lie after lie to comment sections on my social media pages and then claim I'm "hiding something" when I boot them.

Because booting them and ignoring their remarks is something sane people do.

That's part of their problem, you see - they hide behind technology and arcane systems that are easy to spoof and hide your identity on, and that most people including the vast majority of law enforcement don't understand.

You haven't gone to the cops since that time you thought birds were listening to your phone conversations.

I just got off the phone with MIAG, and I had to explain to them what USENET is. Their answer is "well just have your lawyer (hah!) contact google and delete the messages." The girl on the phone at the FBI was audibly eyerolling as soon as I said "

internet."


I believed you called the FBI as much as I believe you don't have an overflowing toilet.

Understand that *I am an antifascist, anti-authoritarian, left-wing small-L libertarian, i.e. "ansoc," anarcho-socialist. I believe the only valid functions of government are regulation of commerce and industry, and protecting the general public from

psychotic losers like this.


Understand you *are* crazy, insane, narcissistic, self-absorbed.

Unfortunately we don't live in that world. Indeed, to a certain point they even have "the right" to say what they want.

"To a certain point?"

Of course that right ends firmly at slander, but that doesn't really matter when you can't even canonically identify who's involved, now does it? What am I gonna do, sue a sockpuppet?

I can see you doing that, but it being a literal sock with buttons for eyes.

These people want to see me ended

People want to see you "ended" because you are a dumbass, John, and they are sick of your shit.

because they can't live up to who I am at my worst, and they don't even want you to see me at my best. That's why there are 160 conversations about me in six months, in a newsgroup I haven't given serious thought in nearly twenty years.

Again. Mocking.

A few months ago, one of the primary actors, who I believe is in a major decompensation event after I finally told them to get the hell out of my world and stay out, started feeding a random FB dick I was arguing with this information, and in doing so

provided me with sufficient evidence to be 99.8% certain who that person was - and I'd suspected them for a very long time, suspicions that were also confirmed by various behavioral tics and such in our interactions over time. Then when I found all this
a couple of days ago, it got to 99.9.


Ooo! Ooo! Was it me again? Please say it was me!

There's really only a few people in the world who have both the technical know-how and the motivation to do this to me.

So my other friend had to go - business meeting or something - but I have another friend, Ura Nuttur, from Tibet. Shake hands, Jo-Jo.

I can think of exactly two by name...and I'm beginning to suspect that much of the alleged involvement of Dink in all of this is also a smokescreen because he's such a moron it's easy to think he'd be responsible.

I LOVE YOU, YOU CRAZY DUCKED UP SON OF A BITCH.

And I think he's got his hands in, because he's a psycho loser and we've all known that for twenty-five years, but frankly he appears to have enough going on in his life to simply not have this much free time on his hands, and if he offered to just let

it all drop and walk away...well, I'd be doing the same thing I have been, which is forgetting about him (at least until a "friend" shows up pretending to be him and brings it up again).


Is that about me, or about someone else?

But it's not all him, and I suspect he's been manipulated a bit by the other one...just like pretty much everybody dogpiling these threads has. Of course I can't "prove," because that's the point. To make me seem "paranoid" and "delusional" and maybe

get frustrated enough to get my ass thrown in a rubber room like he did.


But you ARE paranoid and delusional, Jo-Jo.

In the end, they hate my spirit because they're ashamed of themselves - far too ashamed to admit to anyone who they are or what they do, or to come out from behind the sockpuppets and fake accounts and AI-generated bullshit - and they see me being

ashamed and owning it, knowing they don't have the guts to measure up to that, and since they can't rise to my level, all they have left is to drag me down to theirs...and it's literally driving them nuts that they can't.


You don't have a level to rise to. You are an imploded submersible on the RSPW ocean floor.

I know what my sins and crimes are,

"Crimes?"
So...you called the FBI...knowing you were a criminal.
Yea. That makes sense.

and I've been quite public about owning up to them - as you can clearly see. Have I posted a fourth-step inventory to the world? No. It's not necessary and it would only serve to open old wounds and possibly cause harm in the very act of trying to

reduce or make amends for that harm. That's why the 9th step includes the caveat "...wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others." Sometimes it's not possible, sometimes the attempt would do further harm. There are plenty of such
things that have been done to me, as well, and there won't be amends made for those. Some amends can't be made, some mistakes can't be un-made, and sometimes the only thing you can do is say "well, that sucked," and keep on moving forward and living your
life.


The amount of Crazy in that statement is so thick you could use it as caulking.

That's what I've been trying to do for twenty years, and these weirdos just will. not. let. go.

For 20 years you have been a loser, John.

I've done everything I could to complete that step. I've made my amends to those I've harmed whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others; and I've changed my behavior to avoid harming anyone else - including flat-out avoiding

any sort of physical relationship for 18 years. I've tried to help others. In some cases, that help was turned on me and shoved into my back like a blade, but that's gonna happen sometimes when you're trying to help people who are addicts and suffering
with serious mental illness and dysfunction.


I loved it when the stripper kicked you in the groin and ran.

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways

to sanity and hope; to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to do. There's nothing
else I *can* do in most cases short of hara-kiri, and while I live with major depressive disorder and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of killing myself at least once, it's just thoughts. I'm not going to do that, because I still have
good work to do in this world, and I'm not going to let anyone, including myself, stop me from doing it.


YAY! I was wondering when we would get to a suicide threat! Took you damn near long enough!

And that, more than anything else, is why a couple of badly broken, deranged, and psychotic narcissists have been up my ass like a colonoscopy for twenty years.

Anyone who is buying in to this is being played for a patsy by a psycho, and the psycho isn't me.

Nobody buys into you. Mostly because your stock price is too low.

I don't hide. I don't sock up and pretend to be other people.

Except webmaster@bellsouth.net

I don't work back-channel and in the shadows, dealing in rumor and innuendo and faked screenshots and exploiting addiction and desperation and even just the petty venality of punch-down trolling to hurt people who I know I have no valid reason to hurt.

I'm no prince, no messiah, no "great good man." I've done some pretty rotten things in my life, and I'm doing what I can to balance that.

Killing yourself would be a nice start.

These people don't want that to happen, because if it does then they're left with nothing but to look at their own failure to address their own issues and know that the failure is indeed their own.

Narcissism is so thick on that statement you could use it to paint houses.

Don't get sucked in to it. You're being used and manipulated by at least one, probably two, and maybe several psychotic narcissists who have been caught in a feedback loop of blaming me for their problems for over half their lives.

Well in their defense, you have been publicly bullshitting for a long time.

Now I'm leaving again, and I don't intend to be back. Stop falling for this "oh it's JH in a sock" shit. It isn't. If I've got something to say, I'll say it loud and clear with my own face and voice, just as I always have.

THE BIG JOHN HENRY DEJONG IS WINNING AGAIN! HE IS THE GREETEST! NOW HE IS LEAVING FOR NO RAISIN!

I hope those of you who have spent half your lives up my ass manage to get the help you so clearly and desperately need.

Kill yourself.

PS: I'm not naming the "friend" because I'm not going to give them anything to hang their own lawsuit on, just as I didn't interfere in their abusive relationships because if I did, they'd blame me for those relationships collapsing. You all know who I

mean.


"I' going to write a 2,000+ rant about someone, but won't tell you about who."

Best,
John Henry DeJong
Kalamazoo, MI

Go fuck yoruself.

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In article <XnsB040BBF7DB838ReallyNotChad@135.181.20.170>, Chadweasel274 @zoho.com says...

Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in news:MPG.3f19fe5e9a0c342098dd38@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article <0bcefce7-061c-4fd5-846a-70e57d7974ffn@googlegroups.com>, johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 3:05:55�PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or
anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

Ooo, Mr. Power and control's gonna be billy badass and order me to do
what I'd have already done an hour ago if he wasn't continuing to
respond.

But I'm the one who "lacks self-awareness." FFS.

Yet here you are. Do you want me to allow you to leave?

He's sure flopping about in the boat. It's almost as if he doesn't want to leave.

If he would stick around I might do a pay pal. I never had the honor of
meeting him until now.

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Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in news:MPG.3f19fe5e9a0c342098dd38@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article <0bcefce7-061c-4fd5-846a-70e57d7974ffn@googlegroups.com>, johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 3:05:55�PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or
anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

Ooo, Mr. Power and control's gonna be billy badass and order me to do
what I'd have already done an hour ago if he wasn't continuing to
respond.

But I'm the one who "lacks self-awareness." FFS.

Yet here you are. Do you want me to allow you to leave?

He's sure flopping about in the boat. It's almost as if he doesn't want to leave.

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XPost: alt.checkmate

John Henry <johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com> wrote in news:162ccb3a-2f61-4611-917e-cf38c72015fen@googlegroups.com:

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 10:05:26 AM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman
#274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
news:tiMrM.197045$edH5....@fx11.iad:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

"Checkmate <moderat...@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave...@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f18dc08...@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading
posts

by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say
the

following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim.
So

how best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will
read!

That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but
it's hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So are
a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners selfish,
please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll
realize, it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a
clearinghouse,

helping guide those in need to net.resources: for digging
themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks...
we have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in
over 4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of
2018. Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15
years before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a
well despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the
content.

His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after
he was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used
cigarettes he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide
and

confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total of
10 dollars for the month of June.

I hope the healing message I sent him didn't scare him off.

He could be someone someday. Who knows?

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds
of

hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out on
cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking
heavily on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill
myself via narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just
shoot myself in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in
which my posts weren't fortified with at least three different
drugs, and often twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

You don't have John himself posting to the froup. (Meanwhile,
Perfessor Mojibake can't keep from scribbling in a.c.)

But we do! His Laz Mann sockpuppet posts every now and then to shill
and beg for money.

Suspecting you don't have John himself posting in RSPW because
his is a suspected anxious-avoidant attachment
strategy. (I wouldn't expect him to post, it's too
hostile for him.)

No, it's because John's last explicit appearance as Net.Bastard was
such

an overwhelming failure that he has no desire to own up to his rants.
He's stopped in and attempted to be someone else since. Don't
overanalyze it.

All of this is bullshit. This person - who is almost certainly not
Dave Zimmerman, as I can't recall a single time Dave and I ever had
hostility nor can I think of any reason he'd be involved; the last I
heard anything about him he'd supposedly moved to Australia or
something after a woman in the UK he was trying to hook up with dumped
him - has spent the last twenty-five years or so hiding behind
sockpuppets and recruiting petit trolls and harassers to do his dirty
work for him, while hiding behind an army of sockpuppets and fake
names and leveraging the various helpful aspects of different websites
and social media networks to conceal his identity. They know I tend
to REALLY piss off a small set of folks, and they feed those folks and encourage them to escalate and propagate all the BS, so as to ensure
nobody can be held directly responsible for any of it.

Beautiful run on sentences, using a semi-colon and just plain old
batshit lies! Could this really be the real John Henry back after 5
years?

Let's see!

John tends to piss off anyone who hates mooches too.

This is the first time I've posted to this group since 2018. The only
reason I'm here now is because I googled my name on a whim and
realized that this is a huge part of the reason I can't get a job at
all beyond schtupping canned goods at a grocery store or digging
ditches, neither of which I'm physically able to do anymore due to
various wear and tear related to aging - I'm fifty-two.

John certainly does try to erase his history.

When I stopped by here at the end of 2018 - at the encouragement of a "friend" - I was here for half an hour, took one look at the place,
and went "no fuckin' way, the few people left here are completely out
of their tree, fuck. all. this." That was after having left back in
2005 because I founded a non-profit theater group and didn't want this
person and their fellow travelers hassling a bunch of kids.

A half hour? Liar.

I've never made a secret of my "secrets." I was strung out on coke
for a dozen years, up until '99. I was a physically abusive boyfriend
and father; the latter debatable even by current standards (this is a
country that loves corporal punishment!), and I've been very open
about that in public in the hope that by doing so I could encourage
others suffering from similar mental health issues to get help and get better.

What about the people and pocketbooks you've abused, John?

This person - whose identity I don't know with certainty, but it's one
of two, to 95%CI - has been playing this game for at least two
decades. They've contacted my family multiple times; one of them
spent a few years soliciting nudes from my then-underage daughter.
They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a very
slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now is
partially compromised; I genuinely have no idea how they even knew
where I was, let alone who I was with, as the two of us go quite far
back and have mutual acquaintances, and we both were very much not
interested in any of them (including members of my family) know of the connection, but they were in my roommate's ear within a week or so of
my moving in here.

So you won't name names? That's the coward I know.

There are at least two people involved here who are pathologically
obsessed with me. One of them has encouraged the other to believe
that I'm posting here under all these sockpuppets and playing all
these games but the truth is I've been trying to shake the stink of
this dump out of my hair for basically two decades now.

Have you forgotten all abou t their henchcritters, you paranoid fool?

Being ridiculous attracts ridicule, John.

I suspect the biggest problem is that many years ago I ended up
jaw-flapping my way into the wrestling business where I had a great
time and met some famous people, and they wanted that but didn't have
any of the necessary skills or attributes to make it happen. And I
walked away. I've been focused mostly on political activism and
writing since then, and haven't looked back.

It's hard to look back when you're running away from your creditors.

I had believed that my increasing difficulty in finding any job that
involves so much as a cursory background check was related to that
activity - leftist anti-capitalist anti-corporate authoritarian with a personality and solid stage presence, if I'm an employer I can
understand how I wouldn't hire that guy he's gonna come in and
unionize my shop and be a rabble-rouser, turn us in to OSHA for
cutting corners or whatever. Hell, he's "ANTIFA," and "we all know"
they're "terrorists." Cost of doing business; if you're gonna fight
city hall, you gotta expect city hall's gonna fight back. I'm
fighting plutocracy and oligarchy and the rise of American fascism and ultimately capitalism itself - it's an unsustainable poison in our
culture and world, compromising integrity and creating conflict of
interest in everything it touches including health care, education,
media, and criminal justice - and it stands to reason that those who
are participating in capitalism would not want to help fund that
because they see it as a threat to their way of life (which it is,
because collectively our way of life is shit and has to change or
we're just not gonna last much longer). So I kind of just went 'eh,'
took the hit, kept up my work, and have relied on crowdfunding and
what little menial labor work I could find to survive.

The crowdfunding amounted to 10 bucks last month, John. you even said
so. But you also don't work and claim you work for your "followers".
Looks like they don't want to hire an unstable nut case either.

A couple of days ago, on a whim, I googled my full name, and found
this ungodly shitpile with my name all over it, stretching back
decades. It's not unintentional that my full name is used so
frequently; the entire point of that is to do precisely what has been
done, which is to ensure that anyone googling me runs smack into a
litany of supposed offenses ranging from farting in church to grand
larceny to child abuse to DUI. It shows up before anything, including
my own websites.

Well, the child abuse is pretty damning. Ever wonder why your daughter
wants nothing to do with you?

This is why I've spent the last fifteen years or so having great
interviews and feeling like I probably had a gig, only to get that
classic phone call of Jim Crow and other sub-surface discrimination:
"sorry, we found another candidate." This is why I don't have a gig
now with someone like Progress Michigan or the ACLU or the campaigns
of progressive candidates like Sanders or Tlaib.

No, you're a nutcase. It doesn't take long to figure that out. Maybe
turn Republican. They like that in their paid liars.

In the main these people can't stand me because they wish they had the
spine to BE me, to face all the crap that's been piled on and survive
and keep fighting, because they know they wouldn't be able to. This
is why one of them encouraged me to have myself committed - all in "friendship" and "concern" of course - because they've been 5150'd
multiple times and they're pissed that I haven't. There are other
things that I'm not going to go into detail about here and now, for
reasons of my own...but those reasons aren't to hide anything about
myself beyond what I'm doing right now aside from writing this
message.

Not me, I believe you should be in jail. Ever repay Beth Aultman, your
family or your previous landlords?

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," there have
been 160+ conversations in this group about me *this year*. You
should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," these people
know so much about me and my life - I've never mentioned my roommate's
name in public, and neither has she.

Too easy. Because people like to laugh at you and your lies.

It started off, some 25+ years ago, being a bunch of dumbasses playing wrassler on the internet, cutting stupid promos and pretending to be
all that stuff for giggles. Then a few people started crossing lines, interfering with people's jobs (the first time it happened to me was
in 1997 I think, at NCSU). Then when those targeted swung back and
landed a few hits of their own, the psychos really lost it and
escalated. As I said above, eventually it got to the point where it
wasn't worth participating given the level of BS in unrelated life
that it created, and I walked away.

So you threatening people, and the wrong people at that, had nothing to
do with it?

There's nothing a narcissist hates more than being ignored, and it
appears at least two - possibly more, I have no way of knowing for
sure, that's part of their game - narcissists have made me the focus
of blame for their failed and miserable lives, and have worked quite a
bit harder than I'd realized up until the last couple of days to
ensure my life was just as failed and miserable as theirs. Except
unlike them, I don't have a trail of insecure but affluent women
stretching back over the last three decades that I've stolen from and
beat on and abused; I stopped dating in March of 2001 for various
reasons, all of them related to not wanting to get involved in a
relationship again until I could do so in a healthy way and get my insecurities and fears and such under control. Unlike them, I admit I
*have* a daughter. Unlike them, I haven't made up stories about
joining the military to cover having my ass rubber-roomed. Unlike
them, I haven't made the last twenty years about making other people's
lives miserable and hurting people because it's the only thing I know
how to do.

John, the stripper episode told everyone what they needed to know about
you.

And unlike them, I'm not cross-posting all of this to every troll farm
and harassment base etc. I can find in the hopes of recruiting them to
join in on the harassment.

Why would you? You'll be running away shortly. Some things never change.

I haven't "reinvented myself," ever. I haven't even cut my hair in
almost 15 years and other than a lot of gray and some extra pounds
look exactly like I did when I was 20. Other than pissing around on
Usenet back in the mid-late 90s and early 2000s (as above), I've never
tried to hide my identity or pretend to be anyone else but who I am.
I haven't "deleted my work" or tried to "hide" thing - everything I've
ever put on the web is readily available through the wayback machine.
That said, I do tend to block and ban harassers and the kinds of
wet-fart personalities who do psycho shit like posting lie after lie
after lie to comment sections on my social media pages and then claim
I'm "hiding something" when I boot them.

Purging a lot of your history doesn't mean that people will forget it. A
few have all of that saved off.

That's part of their problem, you see - they hide behind technology
and arcane systems that are easy to spoof and hide your identity on,
and that most people including the vast majority of law enforcement
don't understand. I just got off the phone with MIAG, and I had to
explain to them what USENET is. Their answer is "well just have your
lawyer (hah!) contact google and delete the messages." The girl on
the phone at the FBI was audibly eyerolling as soon as I said
"internet."

Oh boy. Now the FBI are laughing at John? What's a moocher to do?

Understand that *I am an antifascist, anti-authoritarian, left-wing
small-L libertarian, i.e. "ansoc," anarcho-socialist. I believe the
only valid functions of government are regulation of commerce and
industry, and protecting the general public from psychotic losers like
this.

Who is protecting Beth Bultman, your daughter or your other mooching
victims from you?

Unfortunately we don't live in that world. Indeed, to a certain point
they even have "the right" to say what they want. Of course that
right ends firmly at slander, but that doesn't really matter when you
can't even canonically identify who's involved, now does it? What am
I gonna do, sue a sockpuppet?

These people want to see me ended because they can't live up to who I
am at my worst, and they don't even want you to see me at my best.
That's why there are 160 conversations about me in six months, in a
newsgroup I haven't given serious thought in nearly twenty years.

It's because you'rew a piece of shit, John.

A few months ago, one of the primary actors, who I believe is in a
major decompensation event after I finally told them to get the hell
out of my world and stay out, started feeding a random FB dick I was
arguing with this information, and in doing so provided me with
sufficient evidence to be 99.8% certain who that person was - and I'd suspected them for a very long time, suspicions that were also
confirmed by various behavioral tics and such in our interactions over
time. Then when I found all this a couple of days ago, it got to
99.9.

Sherlock John is going to bust this case wide open!

There's really only a few people in the world who have both the
technical know-how and the motivation to do this to me. I can think
of exactly two by name...and I'm beginning to suspect that much of the alleged involvement of Dink in all of this is also a smokescreen
because he's such a moron it's easy to think he'd be responsible. And
I think he's got his hands in, because he's a psycho loser and we've
all known that for twenty-five years, but frankly he appears to have
enough going on in his life to simply not have this much free time on
his hands, and if he offered to just let it all drop and walk
away...well, I'd be doing the same thing I have been, which is
forgetting about him (at least until a "friend" shows up pretending to
be him and brings it up again).

Woo-hoo! alex is off the hook! Kick his ass, Alex!

But it's not all him, and I suspect he's been manipulated a bit by the
other one...just like pretty much everybody dogpiling these threads
has. Of course I can't "prove," because that's the point. To make me
seem "paranoid" and "delusional" and maybe get frustrated enough to
get my ass thrown in a rubber room like he did.

In the end, they hate my spirit because they're ashamed of themselves
- far too ashamed to admit to anyone who they are or what they do, or
to come out from behind the sockpuppets and fake accounts and
AI-generated bullshit - and they see me being ashamed and owning it,
knowing they don't have the guts to measure up to that, and since they
can't rise to my level, all they have left is to drag me down to
theirs...and it's literally driving them nuts that they can't.

I know what my sins and crimes are, and I've been quite public about
owning up to them - as you can clearly see. Have I posted a
fourth-step inventory to the world? No. It's not necessary and it
would only serve to open old wounds and possibly cause harm in the
very act of trying to reduce or make amends for that harm. That's why
the 9th step includes the caveat "...wherever possible, except when to
do so would injure them or others." Sometimes it's not possible,
sometimes the attempt would do further harm. There are plenty of such
things that have been done to me, as well, and there won't be amends
made for those. Some amends can't be made, some mistakes can't be
un-made, and sometimes the only thing you can do is say "well, that
sucked," and keep on moving forward and living your life.

That's what I've been trying to do for twenty years, and these weirdos
just will. not. let. go.

I've done everything I could to complete that step. I've made my
amends to those I've harmed whenever possible, except when to do so
would injure them or others; and I've changed my behavior to avoid
harming anyone else - including flat-out avoiding any sort of physical relationship for 18 years. I've tried to help others. In some cases,
that help was turned on me and shoved into my back like a blade, but
that's gonna happen sometimes when you're trying to help people who
are addicts and suffering with serious mental illness and dysfunction.

Trying to hook up with a stripper isn't exactly abstaining from
relationships. You failed again, John.

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to
improving the world around me, including helping those who are still
caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope;
to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy
of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and
they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've
learned to do. There's nothing else I *can* do in most cases short of hara-kiri, and while I live with major depressive disorder and there's
not a day that goes by that I don't think of killing myself at least
once, it's just thoughts. I'm not going to do that, because I still
have good work to do in this world, and I'm not going to let anyone, including myself, stop me from doing it.

And that, more than anything else, is why a couple of badly broken,
deranged, and psychotic narcissists have been up my ass like a
colonoscopy for twenty years.

Anyone who is buying in to this is being played for a patsy by a
psycho, and the psycho isn't me.

Survey says...John is batshit!

I don't hide. I don't sock up and pretend to be other people. I
don't work back-channel and in the shadows, dealing in rumor and
innuendo and faked screenshots and exploiting addiction and
desperation and even just the petty venality of punch-down trolling to
hurt people who I know I have no valid reason to hurt.

I'm no prince, no messiah, no "great good man." I've done some pretty
rotten things in my life, and I'm doing what I can to balance that.

It's a bit late for your daughter, John.

These people don't want that to happen, because if it does then
they're left with nothing but to look at their own failure to address
their own issues and know that the failure is indeed their own.

Don't get sucked in to it. You're being used and manipulated by at
least one, probably two, and maybe several psychotic narcissists who
have been caught in a feedback loop of blaming me for their problems
for over half their lives.

Oh dear, the other narcissists are picking on John! That's just what I'd
expect a psychotic narcissist to say.

Now I'm leaving again, and I don't intend to be back. Stop falling
for this "oh it's JH in a sock" shit. It isn't. If I've got
something to say, I'll say it loud and clear with my own face and
voice, just as I always have.

Aha! The tear-filled exit! This probably is John after all.

I hope those of you who have spent half your lives up my ass manage to
get the help you so clearly and desperately need.

Project more, John. The trolls demand it.

PS: I'm not naming the "friend" because I'm not going to give them
anything to hang their own lawsuit on, just as I didn't interfere in
their abusive relationships because if I did, they'd blame me for
those relationships collapsing. You all know who I mean.

No, name names. It'll be fun! It's not like you have anything someone
could sue you for.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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In article <XnsB040C55FC71EFReallyNotChad@135.181.20.170>, Chadweasel274 @zoho.com says...

Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in news:MPG.3f1a3024e55d8c7998dd44@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article <XnsB040BBF7DB838ReallyNotChad@135.181.20.170>,
Chadweasel274 @zoho.com says...

Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in
news:MPG.3f19fe5e9a0c342098dd38@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article
<0bcefce7-061c-4fd5-846a-70e57d7974ffn@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 3:05:55�PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or
anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

Ooo, Mr. Power and control's gonna be billy badass and order me to
do what I'd have already done an hour ago if he wasn't continuing
to respond.

But I'm the one who "lacks self-awareness." FFS.

Yet here you are. Do you want me to allow you to leave?

He's sure flopping about in the boat. It's almost as if he doesn't
want to leave.

If he would stick around I might do a pay pal. I never had the honor
of meeting him until now.

You own all the best kooks. If only you were as evil as Alex Cain, it
would be really scary. Maybe you should take on a few dozen henchpeople
to see if that helps.

I'm retired. I just like playing rope a dope with them.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in news:MPG.3f1a3024e55d8c7998dd44@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article <XnsB040BBF7DB838ReallyNotChad@135.181.20.170>,
Chadweasel274 @zoho.com says...

Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in
news:MPG.3f19fe5e9a0c342098dd38@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article
<0bcefce7-061c-4fd5-846a-70e57d7974ffn@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 3:05:55�PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or
anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

Ooo, Mr. Power and control's gonna be billy badass and order me to
do what I'd have already done an hour ago if he wasn't continuing
to respond.

But I'm the one who "lacks self-awareness." FFS.

Yet here you are. Do you want me to allow you to leave?

He's sure flopping about in the boat. It's almost as if he doesn't
want to leave.

If he would stick around I might do a pay pal. I never had the honor
of meeting him until now.

You own all the best kooks. If only you were as evil as Alex Cain, it
would be really scary. Maybe you should take on a few dozen henchpeople
to see if that helps.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in news:MPG.3f1a414d7fcde7c498dd48@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article <XnsB040C55FC71EFReallyNotChad@135.181.20.170>,
Chadweasel274 @zoho.com says...

Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in
news:MPG.3f1a3024e55d8c7998dd44@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article <XnsB040BBF7DB838ReallyNotChad@135.181.20.170>,
Chadweasel274 @zoho.com says...

Skeeter <Skeeterweed@proton.me> wrote in
news:MPG.3f19fe5e9a0c342098dd38@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article
<0bcefce7-061c-4fd5-846a-70e57d7974ffn@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 3:05:55�PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or
anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

Ooo, Mr. Power and control's gonna be billy badass and order me
to do what I'd have already done an hour ago if he wasn't
continuing to respond.

But I'm the one who "lacks self-awareness." FFS.

Yet here you are. Do you want me to allow you to leave?

He's sure flopping about in the boat. It's almost as if he doesn't
want to leave.

If he would stick around I might do a pay pal. I never had the
honor of meeting him until now.

You own all the best kooks. If only you were as evil as Alex Cain, it
would be really scary. Maybe you should take on a few dozen
henchpeople to see if that helps.

I'm retired. I just like playing rope a dope with them.

John brings his own rope. Very convenient.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 8:24:46 PM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

Skeeter <Skeet...@proton.me> wrote in news:MPG.3f1a414d7...@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article <XnsB040C55FC71...@135.181.20.170>,
Chadweasel274 @zoho.com says...

Skeeter <Skeet...@proton.me> wrote in
news:MPG.3f1a3024e...@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article <XnsB040BBF7DB8...@135.181.20.170>,
Chadweasel274 @zoho.com says...

Skeeter <Skeet...@proton.me> wrote in
news:MPG.3f19fe5e9...@usnews.blocknews.net:

In article
<0bcefce7-061c-4fd5...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 3:05:55 PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <ccc3521c-b28f-45f0...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

I don't care, and I don't need to validate myself to you or
anyone else. I said "good day."

Then leave.

Ooo, Mr. Power and control's gonna be billy badass and order me
to do what I'd have already done an hour ago if he wasn't
continuing to respond.

But I'm the one who "lacks self-awareness." FFS.

Yet here you are. Do you want me to allow you to leave?

He's sure flopping about in the boat. It's almost as if he doesn't
want to leave.

If he would stick around I might do a pay pal. I never had the
honor of meeting him until now.

You own all the best kooks. If only you were as evil as Alex Cain, it
would be really scary. Maybe you should take on a few dozen
henchpeople to see if that helps.

I'm retired. I just like playing rope a dope with them.

John brings his own rope. Very convenient.

It's just a damn shame that he never uses it.

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 10:57:29 -0700 (PDT), John Henry wrote:

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to
improving the world around me, including helping those who are still
caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope; to
show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of
life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they
can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to
do.

Well, you _say_ you've learned it -- but man, I just mention one
video and suddenly your life is the freakin' French Connection. 🙄️

All I know is I see these multiple people in a venue describing someone
in pain. Maybe they're wrong. Heck, maybe you're a troll
cooked up by Janithor.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I found a video, and I was going to post
it anyway, but realized there's at least one person reading this froup
that could really use it, as well as the associated videos.

BTW, sometimes it's found that a general attitude shared by society
is viewed by those that don't adhere to it as somehow "all those people
who agree with each other are in cahoots."

Finally, I'll be pedantic for a second: "slander" is verbal defamation.
When it's written, it's called "libel". And if you _really_ haven't
been reading this group -- well, that was fortuitous that you happened
by when that video link was front-and-center.

Did you look at it? It might help you get rid of some of
the self-judgments, which can come from an internal
critic being wound up very tight. Or help others with a
similar malady, should you come across anyone who might
need that help.

But it sounds like you're taking care of yourself, and that's
good to hear. I'm not sure if it's this video or another, but
Heidi talks about how the resulting attachment style can leave
one with alternating grandiose ideas about themselves, followed
by abject disgust with oneself. For sake of discussion, I'll
refer to that as "ego-whiplash":

Are you suffering from this syndrome?

--
-c

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XPost: alt.checkmate

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 20:04:30 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

I prefer to save my compassion and charity for those that need and
appreciate it rather than take it for granted.

Agreed for the general case, but that
sets-up a baseline fallacy.

Some people will be grateful to you, and society, once they have
reached a fulfilling life; but while undergoing the transition to that
relative utopia, they may take your for granted. (Or worse:
they hate your guts.)

Does that make sense?

(This doesn't even address the compassion one feels for Alzheimer's
patients and their families, even if the patient has started to act
in a disagreeable way, maybe even abusive toward family members who come
to visit.)

--
-c

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Also, watch this behavior, as exhibited by one sockpuppet while I was typing:


de·com·pen·sa·tion
noun
Psychiatry
the failure to generate effective psychological coping mechanisms in response to stress, resulting in personality disturbance or disintegration, especially that which causes relapse in schizophrenia.

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On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 1:01:15 PM UTC-4, Creon wrote:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 10:57:29 -0700 (PDT), John Henry wrote:

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to
improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope; to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of
life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they
can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to do.

Well, you _say_ you've learned it -- but man, I just mention one
video and suddenly your life is the freakin' French Connection. 🙄️

All I know is I see these multiple people in a venue describing someone
in pain. Maybe they're wrong. Heck, maybe you're a troll
cooked up by Janithor.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I found a video, and I was going to post
it anyway, but realized there's at least one person reading this froup
that could really use it, as well as the associated videos.

BTW, sometimes it's found that a general attitude shared by society
is viewed by those that don't adhere to it as somehow "all those people
who agree with each other are in cahoots."

Finally, I'll be pedantic for a second: "slander" is verbal defamation.
When it's written, it's called "libel". And if you _really_ haven't
been reading this group -- well, that was fortuitous that you happened
by when that video link was front-and-center.

Did you look at it? It might help you get rid of some of
the self-judgments, which can come from an internal
critic being wound up very tight. Or help others with a
similar malady, should you come across anyone who might
need that help.

But it sounds like you're taking care of yourself, and that's
good to hear. I'm not sure if it's this video or another, but
Heidi talks about how the resulting attachment style can leave
one with alternating grandiose ideas about themselves, followed
by abject disgust with oneself. For sake of discussion, I'll
refer to that as "ego-whiplash":

Are you suffering from this syndrome?

--
-c

Eh. Hard saying from inside the bubble, but it's not inaccurate.

It's also super typical of bipolar II, which is one of my diagnoses.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: of all the people in this conversation, there's only one who's ever admitted they have been wrong or made bad decisions. Might want to keep that in mind as you observe.

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On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 1:57:31 PM UTC-4, John Henry wrote:

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 10:05:26 AM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
news:tiMrM.197045$edH5....@fx11.iad:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

"Checkmate <moderat...@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave...@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f18dc08...@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading posts >>> by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say the >>> following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim. So >>>> > how best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will read! >>>> >
That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but it's >>>> hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So are
a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners selfish,
please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll realize, >>>> it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a clearinghouse, >>>> helping guide those in need to net.resources: for digging
themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks... we
have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in over
4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of 2018.
Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15 years
before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a well
despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the content. >> His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after he
was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used cigarettes
he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide and >> confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total of 10
dollars for the month of June.

I hope the healing message I sent him didn't scare him off.

He could be someone someday. Who knows?

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds of >> hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out on
cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking heavily
on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill myself via
narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just shoot myself
in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in which my posts
weren't fortified with at least three different drugs, and often
twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

You don't have John himself posting to the froup. (Meanwhile,
Perfessor Mojibake can't keep from scribbling in a.c.)

But we do! His Laz Mann sockpuppet posts every now and then to shill and beg for money.

Suspecting you don't have John himself posting in RSPW because
his is a suspected anxious-avoidant attachment
strategy. (I wouldn't expect him to post, it's too
hostile for him.)

No, it's because John's last explicit appearance as Net.Bastard was such an overwhelming failure that he has no desire to own up to his rants.
He's stopped in and attempted to be someone else since. Don't
overanalyze it.

All of this is bullshit. This person - who is almost certainly not Dave Zimmerman, as I can't recall a single time Dave and I ever had hostility nor can I think of any reason he'd be involved; the last I heard anything about him he'd supposedly moved

to Australia or something after a woman in the UK he was trying to hook up with dumped him - has spent the last twenty-five years or so hiding behind sockpuppets and recruiting petit trolls and harassers to do his dirty work for him, while hiding behind
an army of sockpuppets and fake names and leveraging the various helpful aspects of different websites and social media networks to conceal his identity. They know I tend to REALLY piss off a small set of folks, and they feed those folks and encourage
them to escalate and propagate all the BS, so as to ensure nobody can be held directly responsible for any of it.

This is the first time I've posted to this group since 2018. The only reason I'm here now is because I googled my name on a whim and realized that this is a huge part of the reason I can't get a job at all beyond schtupping canned goods at a grocery

store or digging ditches, neither of which I'm physically able to do anymore due to various wear and tear related to aging - I'm fifty-two.

When I stopped by here at the end of 2018 - at the encouragement of a "friend" - I was here for half an hour, took one look at the place, and went "no fuckin' way, the few people left here are completely out of their tree, fuck. all. this." That was

after having left back in 2005 because I founded a non-profit theater group and didn't want this person and their fellow travelers hassling a bunch of kids.

I've never made a secret of my "secrets." I was strung out on coke for a dozen years, up until '99. I was a physically abusive boyfriend and father; the latter debatable even by current standards (this is a country that loves corporal punishment!), and

I've been very open about that in public in the hope that by doing so I could encourage others suffering from similar mental health issues to get help and get better.

This person - whose identity I don't know with certainty, but it's one of two, to 95%CI - has been playing this game for at least two decades. They've contacted my family multiple times; one of them spent a few years soliciting nudes from my then-

underage daughter. They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now is partially compromised; I genuinely
have no idea how they even knew where I was, let alone who I was with, as the two of us go quite far back and have mutual acquaintances, and we both were very much not interested in any of them (including members of my family) know of the connection, but
they were in my roommate's ear within a week or so of my moving in here.

There are at least two people involved here who are pathologically obsessed with me. One of them has encouraged the other to believe that I'm posting here under all these sockpuppets and playing all these games but the truth is I've been trying to

shake the stink of this dump out of my hair for basically two decades now.

I suspect the biggest problem is that many years ago I ended up jaw-flapping my way into the wrestling business where I had a great time and met some famous people, and they wanted that but didn't have any of the necessary skills or attributes to make

it happen. And I walked away. I've been focused mostly on political activism and writing since then, and haven't looked back.

I had believed that my increasing difficulty in finding any job that involves so much as a cursory background check was related to that activity - leftist anti-capitalist anti-corporate authoritarian with a personality and solid stage presence, if I'm

an employer I can understand how I wouldn't hire that guy he's gonna come in and unionize my shop and be a rabble-rouser, turn us in to OSHA for cutting corners or whatever. Hell, he's "ANTIFA," and "we all know" they're "terrorists." Cost of doing
business; if you're gonna fight city hall, you gotta expect city hall's gonna fight back. I'm fighting plutocracy and oligarchy and the rise of American fascism and ultimately capitalism itself - it's an unsustainable poison in our culture and world,
compromising integrity and creating conflict of interest in everything it touches including health care, education, media, and criminal justice - and it stands to reason that those who are participating in capitalism would not want to help fund that
because they see it as a threat to their way of life (which it is, because collectively our way of life is shit and has to change or we're just not gonna last much longer). So I kind of just went 'eh,' took the hit, kept up my work, and have relied on
crowdfunding and what little menial labor work I could find to survive.

A couple of days ago, on a whim, I googled my full name, and found this ungodly shitpile with my name all over it, stretching back decades. It's not unintentional that my full name is used so frequently; the entire point of that is to do precisely what

has been done, which is to ensure that anyone googling me runs smack into a litany of supposed offenses ranging from farting in church to grand larceny to child abuse to DUI. It shows up before anything, including my own websites.

This is why I've spent the last fifteen years or so having great interviews and feeling like I probably had a gig, only to get that classic phone call of Jim Crow and other sub-surface discrimination: "sorry, we found another candidate." This is why I

don't have a gig now with someone like Progress Michigan or the ACLU or the campaigns of progressive candidates like Sanders or Tlaib.

In the main these people can't stand me because they wish they had the spine to BE me, to face all the crap that's been piled on and survive and keep fighting, because they know they wouldn't be able to. This is why one of them encouraged me to have

myself committed - all in "friendship" and "concern" of course - because they've been 5150'd multiple times and they're pissed that I haven't. There are other things that I'm not going to go into detail about here and now, for reasons of my own...but
those reasons aren't to hide anything about myself beyond what I'm doing right now aside from writing this message.

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," there have been 160+ conversations in this group about me *this year*. You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," these people know so much about me and my life - I've never

mentioned my roommate's name in public, and neither has she.

It started off, some 25+ years ago, being a bunch of dumbasses playing wrassler on the internet, cutting stupid promos and pretending to be all that stuff for giggles. Then a few people started crossing lines, interfering with people's jobs (the first

time it happened to me was in 1997 I think, at NCSU). Then when those targeted swung back and landed a few hits of their own, the psychos really lost it and escalated. As I said above, eventually it got to the point where it wasn't worth participating
given the level of BS in unrelated life that it created, and I walked away.

There's nothing a narcissist hates more than being ignored, and it appears at least two - possibly more, I have no way of knowing for sure, that's part of their game - narcissists have made me the focus of blame for their failed and miserable lives,

and have worked quite a bit harder than I'd realized up until the last couple of days to ensure my life was just as failed and miserable as theirs. Except unlike them, I don't have a trail of insecure but affluent women stretching back over the last
three decades that I've stolen from and beat on and abused; I stopped dating in March of 2001 for various reasons, all of them related to not wanting to get involved in a relationship again until I could do so in a healthy way and get my insecurities and
fears and such under control. Unlike them, I admit I *have* a daughter. Unlike them, I haven't made up stories about joining the military to cover having my ass rubber-roomed. Unlike them, I haven't made the last twenty years about making other people's
lives miserable and hurting people because it's the only thing I know how to do.

And unlike them, I'm not cross-posting all of this to every troll farm and harassment base etc. I can find in the hopes of recruiting them to join in on the harassment.

I haven't "reinvented myself," ever. I haven't even cut my hair in almost 15 years and other than a lot of gray and some extra pounds look exactly like I did when I was 20. Other than pissing around on Usenet back in the mid-late 90s and early 2000s (

as above), I've never tried to hide my identity or pretend to be anyone else but who I am. I haven't "deleted my work" or tried to "hide" thing - everything I've ever put on the web is readily available through the wayback machine. That said, I do tend
to block and ban harassers and the kinds of wet-fart personalities who do psycho shit like posting lie after lie after lie to comment sections on my social media pages and then claim I'm "hiding something" when I boot them.

That's part of their problem, you see - they hide behind technology and arcane systems that are easy to spoof and hide your identity on, and that most people including the vast majority of law enforcement don't understand. I just got off the phone with

MIAG, and I had to explain to them what USENET is. Their answer is "well just have your lawyer (hah!) contact google and delete the messages." The girl on the phone at the FBI was audibly eyerolling as soon as I said "internet."

Understand that *I am an antifascist, anti-authoritarian, left-wing small-L libertarian, i.e. "ansoc," anarcho-socialist. I believe the only valid functions of government are regulation of commerce and industry, and protecting the general public from

psychotic losers like this.

Unfortunately we don't live in that world. Indeed, to a certain point they even have "the right" to say what they want. Of course that right ends firmly at slander, but that doesn't really matter when you can't even canonically identify who's involved,

now does it? What am I gonna do, sue a sockpuppet?

These people want to see me ended because they can't live up to who I am at my worst, and they don't even want you to see me at my best. That's why there are 160 conversations about me in six months, in a newsgroup I haven't given serious thought in

nearly twenty years.

A few months ago, one of the primary actors, who I believe is in a major decompensation event after I finally told them to get the hell out of my world and stay out, started feeding a random FB dick I was arguing with this information, and in doing so

provided me with sufficient evidence to be 99.8% certain who that person was - and I'd suspected them for a very long time, suspicions that were also confirmed by various behavioral tics and such in our interactions over time. Then when I found all this
a couple of days ago, it got to 99.9.

There's really only a few people in the world who have both the technical know-how and the motivation to do this to me. I can think of exactly two by name...and I'm beginning to suspect that much of the alleged involvement of Dink in all of this is

also a smokescreen because he's such a moron it's easy to think he'd be responsible. And I think he's got his hands in, because he's a psycho loser and we've all known that for twenty-five years, but frankly he appears to have enough going on in his life
to simply not have this much free time on his hands, and if he offered to just let it all drop and walk away...well, I'd be doing the same thing I have been, which is forgetting about him (at least until a "friend" shows up pretending to be him and
brings it up again).

But it's not all him, and I suspect he's been manipulated a bit by the other one...just like pretty much everybody dogpiling these threads has. Of course I can't "prove," because that's the point. To make me seem "paranoid" and "delusional" and maybe

get frustrated enough to get my ass thrown in a rubber room like he did.

In the end, they hate my spirit because they're ashamed of themselves - far too ashamed to admit to anyone who they are or what they do, or to come out from behind the sockpuppets and fake accounts and AI-generated bullshit - and they see me being

ashamed and owning it, knowing they don't have the guts to measure up to that, and since they can't rise to my level, all they have left is to drag me down to theirs...and it's literally driving them nuts that they can't.

I know what my sins and crimes are, and I've been quite public about owning up to them - as you can clearly see. Have I posted a fourth-step inventory to the world? No. It's not necessary and it would only serve to open old wounds and possibly cause

harm in the very act of trying to reduce or make amends for that harm. That's why the 9th step includes the caveat "...wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others." Sometimes it's not possible, sometimes the attempt would do
further harm. There are plenty of such things that have been done to me, as well, and there won't be amends made for those. Some amends can't be made, some mistakes can't be un-made, and sometimes the only thing you can do is say "well, that sucked," and
keep on moving forward and living your life.

That's what I've been trying to do for twenty years, and these weirdos just will. not. let. go.

I've done everything I could to complete that step. I've made my amends to those I've harmed whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others; and I've changed my behavior to avoid harming anyone else - including flat-out avoiding

any sort of physical relationship for 18 years. I've tried to help others. In some cases, that help was turned on me and shoved into my back like a blade, but that's gonna happen sometimes when you're trying to help people who are addicts and suffering
with serious mental illness and dysfunction.

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways

to sanity and hope; to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to do. There's nothing
else I *can* do in most cases short of hara-kiri, and while I live with major depressive disorder and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of killing myself at least once, it's just thoughts. I'm not going to do that, because I still have
good work to do in this world, and I'm not going to let anyone, including myself, stop me from doing it.

And that, more than anything else, is why a couple of badly broken, deranged, and psychotic narcissists have been up my ass like a colonoscopy for twenty years.

Anyone who is buying in to this is being played for a patsy by a psycho, and the psycho isn't me.

I don't hide. I don't sock up and pretend to be other people. I don't work back-channel and in the shadows, dealing in rumor and innuendo and faked screenshots and exploiting addiction and desperation and even just the petty venality of punch-down

trolling to hurt people who I know I have no valid reason to hurt.

I'm no prince, no messiah, no "great good man." I've done some pretty rotten things in my life, and I'm doing what I can to balance that.

These people don't want that to happen, because if it does then they're left with nothing but to look at their own failure to address their own issues and know that the failure is indeed their own.

Don't get sucked in to it. You're being used and manipulated by at least one, probably two, and maybe several psychotic narcissists who have been caught in a feedback loop of blaming me for their problems for over half their lives.

Now I'm leaving again, and I don't intend to be back. Stop falling for this "oh it's JH in a sock" shit. It isn't. If I've got something to say, I'll say it loud and clear with my own face and voice, just as I always have.

I hope those of you who have spent half your lives up my ass manage to get the help you so clearly and desperately need.

PS: I'm not naming the "friend" because I'm not going to give them anything to hang their own lawsuit on, just as I didn't interfere in their abusive relationships because if I did, they'd blame me for those relationships collapsing. You all know who I

mean.

Best,
John Henry DeJong
Kalamazoo, MI

JOHN HENRY DEJONG Wait.....you actually applied for a....gasp......JOB?!?!? JOHN HENRY DEJONG Disability- if you can't work, you would qualify. You don't JOHN HENRY DEJONG.
But sure....you are SO important and well known you have your very own conspiracy. Of course you do.
Meanwhile, JOHN HENRY DEJONG, you whine with jealousy over others with 500000 followers compared to your 500.
Time to realize you are not the savior you envision yourself to be JOHN HENRY DEJONG. Kudos you have managed to scrape by on other people's sympathy and money all this time though JOHN HENRY DEJONG . Seriously JOHN HENRY DEJONG.
JOHN HENRY DEJONG The fact you refuse to work (stop already with the can't- I have a 90 year old guy with a cane greeting me at Walmart) and haven't been literally on the street all these years is amazing.
JOHN HENRY DEJONG
JOHN HENRY DEJONG JOHN HENRY DEJONG JOHN HENRY DEJONG JOHN HENRY DEJONG

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In article <12e61e54-f9ac-44be-97c0-16e6c612b470n@googlegroups.com>, johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com says...

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 1:01:15�PM UTC-4, Creon wrote:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 10:57:29 -0700 (PDT), John Henry wrote:

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to
improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope; to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they
can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to do.

Well, you _say_ you've learned it -- but man, I just mention one
video and suddenly your life is the freakin' French Connection. ??

All I know is I see these multiple people in a venue describing someone
in pain. Maybe they're wrong. Heck, maybe you're a troll
cooked up by Janithor.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I found a video, and I was going to post
it anyway, but realized there's at least one person reading this froup
that could really use it, as well as the associated videos.

BTW, sometimes it's found that a general attitude shared by society
is viewed by those that don't adhere to it as somehow "all those people
who agree with each other are in cahoots."

Finally, I'll be pedantic for a second: "slander" is verbal defamation. When it's written, it's called "libel". And if you _really_ haven't
been reading this group -- well, that was fortuitous that you happened
by when that video link was front-and-center.

Did you look at it? It might help you get rid of some of
the self-judgments, which can come from an internal
critic being wound up very tight. Or help others with a
similar malady, should you come across anyone who might
need that help.

But it sounds like you're taking care of yourself, and that's
good to hear. I'm not sure if it's this video or another, but
Heidi talks about how the resulting attachment style can leave
one with alternating grandiose ideas about themselves, followed
by abject disgust with oneself. For sake of discussion, I'll
refer to that as "ego-whiplash":

Are you suffering from this syndrome?

--
-c

Eh. Hard saying from inside the bubble, but it's not inaccurate.

It's also super typical of bipolar II, which is one of my diagnoses.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: of all the people in this conversation, there's only one who's ever admitted they have been wrong or made bad decisions. Might want to keep that in mind as you observe.

Thanks for the mention in your rant.

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On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 2:33:05 PM UTC-4, John Henry wrote:

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 1:01:15 PM UTC-4, Creon wrote:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 10:57:29 -0700 (PDT), John Henry wrote:

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope; to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to do.

Well, you _say_ you've learned it -- but man, I just mention one
video and suddenly your life is the freakin' French Connection. 🙄️

All I know is I see these multiple people in a venue describing someone
in pain. Maybe they're wrong. Heck, maybe you're a troll
cooked up by Janithor.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I found a video, and I was going to post
it anyway, but realized there's at least one person reading this froup that could really use it, as well as the associated videos.

BTW, sometimes it's found that a general attitude shared by society
is viewed by those that don't adhere to it as somehow "all those people who agree with each other are in cahoots."

Finally, I'll be pedantic for a second: "slander" is verbal defamation. When it's written, it's called "libel". And if you _really_ haven't
been reading this group -- well, that was fortuitous that you happened
by when that video link was front-and-center.

Did you look at it? It might help you get rid of some of
the self-judgments, which can come from an internal
critic being wound up very tight. Or help others with a
similar malady, should you come across anyone who might
need that help.

But it sounds like you're taking care of yourself, and that's
good to hear. I'm not sure if it's this video or another, but
Heidi talks about how the resulting attachment style can leave
one with alternating grandiose ideas about themselves, followed
by abject disgust with oneself. For sake of discussion, I'll
refer to that as "ego-whiplash":

Are you suffering from this syndrome?

--
-c

Eh. Hard saying from inside the bubble, but it's not inaccurate.

Weren't you "leaving" this newsgroup for the 1000th time?

Also, heya fuckface. Rant any more about me on social media lately?
Or has the halo over your head prevented you from accessing your computer?

It's also super typical of bipolar II, which is one of my diagnoses.

I diagnose you with being a paranoid douchebag with narcissism and delusional thinking.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: of all the people in this conversation, there's only one who's ever admitted they have been wrong or made bad decisions. Might want to keep that in mind as you observe.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: Not everyone wants to be like you, you stupid asshole.
Take the bag of pity you carry around and put it over your head. Make sure it's plastic, first.

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On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 2:51:05 PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <12e61e54-f9ac-44be...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 1:01:15 PM UTC-4, Creon wrote:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 10:57:29 -0700 (PDT), John Henry wrote:

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope; to
show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to
do.

Well, you _say_ you've learned it -- but man, I just mention one
video and suddenly your life is the freakin' French Connection. ??

All I know is I see these multiple people in a venue describing someone in pain. Maybe they're wrong. Heck, maybe you're a troll
cooked up by Janithor.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I found a video, and I was going to post it anyway, but realized there's at least one person reading this froup that could really use it, as well as the associated videos.

BTW, sometimes it's found that a general attitude shared by society
is viewed by those that don't adhere to it as somehow "all those people who agree with each other are in cahoots."

Finally, I'll be pedantic for a second: "slander" is verbal defamation. When it's written, it's called "libel". And if you _really_ haven't
been reading this group -- well, that was fortuitous that you happened by when that video link was front-and-center.

Did you look at it? It might help you get rid of some of
the self-judgments, which can come from an internal
critic being wound up very tight. Or help others with a
similar malady, should you come across anyone who might
need that help.

But it sounds like you're taking care of yourself, and that's
good to hear. I'm not sure if it's this video or another, but
Heidi talks about how the resulting attachment style can leave
one with alternating grandiose ideas about themselves, followed
by abject disgust with oneself. For sake of discussion, I'll
refer to that as "ego-whiplash":

Are you suffering from this syndrome?

--
-c

Eh. Hard saying from inside the bubble, but it's not inaccurate.

It's also super typical of bipolar II, which is one of my diagnoses.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: of all the people in this conversation, there's only one who's ever admitted they have been wrong or made bad decisions. Might want to keep that in mind as you observe.

Thanks for the mention in your rant.

He mentioned me more than you. Ha, ha! You lose!

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On 7/14/2023 12:15 PM, Family Guy wrote:

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 2:33:05 PM UTC-4, John Henry wrote:

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 1:01:15 PM UTC-4, Creon wrote:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 10:57:29 -0700 (PDT), John Henry wrote:

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done
everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to
improving the world around me, including helping those who are still
caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope; to >>>> show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of
life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they
can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to >>>> do.

Well, you _say_ you've learned it -- but man, I just mention one
video and suddenly your life is the freakin' French Connection. 🙄️

All I know is I see these multiple people in a venue describing someone
in pain. Maybe they're wrong. Heck, maybe you're a troll
cooked up by Janithor.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I found a video, and I was going to post
it anyway, but realized there's at least one person reading this froup
that could really use it, as well as the associated videos.

BTW, sometimes it's found that a general attitude shared by society
is viewed by those that don't adhere to it as somehow "all those people
who agree with each other are in cahoots."

Finally, I'll be pedantic for a second: "slander" is verbal defamation.
When it's written, it's called "libel". And if you _really_ haven't
been reading this group -- well, that was fortuitous that you happened
by when that video link was front-and-center.

Did you look at it? It might help you get rid of some of
the self-judgments, which can come from an internal
critic being wound up very tight. Or help others with a
similar malady, should you come across anyone who might
need that help.

But it sounds like you're taking care of yourself, and that's
good to hear. I'm not sure if it's this video or another, but
Heidi talks about how the resulting attachment style can leave
one with alternating grandiose ideas about themselves, followed
by abject disgust with oneself. For sake of discussion, I'll
refer to that as "ego-whiplash":

Are you suffering from this syndrome?

--
-c

Eh. Hard saying from inside the bubble, but it's not inaccurate.

Weren't you "leaving" this newsgroup for the 1000th time?

Also, heya fuckface. Rant any more about me on social media lately?
Or has the halo over your head prevented you from accessing your computer?

It's also super typical of bipolar II, which is one of my diagnoses.

I diagnose you with being a paranoid douchebag with narcissism and delusional thinking.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: of all the people in this conversation, there's only one who's ever admitted they have been wrong or made bad decisions. Might want to keep that in mind as you observe.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: Not everyone wants to be like you, you stupid asshole.
Take the bag of pity you carry around and put it over your head. Make sure it's plastic, first.

Feel the love.

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On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 2:43:35 PM UTC-4, John Henry wrote:

Oh, John-Boy...I mean JOHN HENRY DEJONG (almost forgot the ultimate goal to suck google searches in)
You and I both know every freaking page you have would look like this one if you didn't dlete and block non stop. You see it here because you can't control here. Am I wrong??
I dare you to prove it by opening your "work" up to honest uncensored feedback. What you have now is a small group of kindhearted souls falling for your bullshit. You are not getting money not because anyone is stopping you but because those currently enabling you are rare. They seem to be too kind or not too smart, the av-er-age
bear sees you clearly. Hence most will not be sending you shit.

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In article <9fa3843d-00c5-4260-8adb-d734c274ad94n@googlegroups.com>, madeforzyngagames@yahoo.com says...

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 2:51:05�PM UTC-4, Skeeter wrote:

In article <12e61e54-f9ac-44be...@googlegroups.com>,
johnhenry...@gmail.com says...

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 1:01:15 PM UTC-4, Creon wrote:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 10:57:29 -0700 (PDT), John Henry wrote:

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to improving the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope; to
show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to
do.

Well, you _say_ you've learned it -- but man, I just mention one
video and suddenly your life is the freakin' French Connection. ??

All I know is I see these multiple people in a venue describing someone in pain. Maybe they're wrong. Heck, maybe you're a troll
cooked up by Janithor.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I found a video, and I was going to post it anyway, but realized there's at least one person reading this froup that could really use it, as well as the associated videos.

BTW, sometimes it's found that a general attitude shared by society
is viewed by those that don't adhere to it as somehow "all those people who agree with each other are in cahoots."

Finally, I'll be pedantic for a second: "slander" is verbal defamation. When it's written, it's called "libel". And if you _really_ haven't been reading this group -- well, that was fortuitous that you happened by when that video link was front-and-center.

Did you look at it? It might help you get rid of some of
the self-judgments, which can come from an internal
critic being wound up very tight. Or help others with a
similar malady, should you come across anyone who might
need that help.

But it sounds like you're taking care of yourself, and that's
good to hear. I'm not sure if it's this video or another, but
Heidi talks about how the resulting attachment style can leave
one with alternating grandiose ideas about themselves, followed
by abject disgust with oneself. For sake of discussion, I'll
refer to that as "ego-whiplash":

Are you suffering from this syndrome?

--
-c

Eh. Hard saying from inside the bubble, but it's not inaccurate.

It's also super typical of bipolar II, which is one of my diagnoses.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: of all the people in this conversation, there's only one who's ever admitted they have been wrong or made bad decisions. Might want to keep that in mind as you observe.

Thanks for the mention in your rant.

He mentioned me more than you. Ha, ha! You lose!

I never had the honor. This is the first time I even chatted with the
fella.

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Creon <creon@creon.earth> wrote in news:6qfsM.29417$e0D4.25317@fx06.iad:

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 20:04:30 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

I prefer to save my compassion and charity for those that need and
appreciate it rather than take it for granted.

Agreed for the general case, but that
sets-up a baseline fallacy.

I stated a preference, not a general rule. In any case, the financial
aspects of my charity are somewhat limited and can only go so far. So
it's essentially triage towards efforts that yield a visible result or
can benefit a large number potentially. John loses every time from that
aspect, you're flushing money down the shitter when sending it to his decades-long mooch-a-thon.

Compassion, other than the financial limits, isn't all that much
different but is a quality that is also more constrained by time and willingness. John fails again and not in a small way. He's not trying to
better himself, he's perfectly happy to have everyone else support him
and otherwise selling himself as a martyr.

John has never passed the smell test for either. His actions consist of
running his mouth and little else and for that he expects people to
finance his lifestyle and ego trips.

Let's not even get into the excuses for not supporting himself. That's
an unending stream of unproven claims and clumsy excuses dating back
decades.

Some people will be grateful to you, and society, once they have
reached a fulfilling life; but while undergoing the transition to that relative utopia, they may take your for granted. (Or worse:
they hate your guts.)

Does that make sense?

Of course it does. Helping out entitled ingrates like John is the
perfect example. No amount of money will ever be enough. Get him food
and shelter? he wants a car. He wants a computer. Then he wants a
studio. He basically wants a free ride and no strings. This is why the
turnover rate of his "supporters" remains ridiculously high.

But he's also proud of saying that your contributions don't buy any
loyalty or influence from his end. He wants it both ways. Send money and
expect nothing except that he'll continue his ego trip and talk at you
more. He frequently deletes history when it's gone overboard and he
starts tearing into the people who are stupid enough to listen to him.

He will also censor any criticism if he can. That's a huge part of the
reasons he's been staying away from here and other media where he can't
control the conversation.

Finally, what he's got to say is simply not worth whatever he asks, even
if it's nothing. He's a waste of time to take seriously. If you need
this guy to validate your beliefs you should reevaluate your needs.

However, John is pure comedy gold once you understand he's a third-rate
mooch, fourth-rate grifter and and second-rate narcissist. John cannot understand why people laugh at him and mock him.

(This doesn't even address the compassion one feels for Alzheimer's
patients and their families, even if the patient has started to act
in a disagreeable way, maybe even abusive toward family members who
come to visit.)

He's pretty much done that to his sheep, just without visible evidence
of Alzheimers.

Watch before it's pulled:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9bn7QONwHaI&t=55s

He even turns on people who fed and housed him in the first 10 minutes.

So send John money and watch it pissed away.

Or send it here: https://ofsds.org/donate

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Family Guy <madeforzyngagames@yahoo.com> wrote in news:c8a48533-8d98-40f0-bb15-3e04156993efn@googlegroups.com:

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 2:33:05 PM UTC-4, John Henry wrote:

On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 1:01:15 PM UTC-4, Creon wrote:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 10:57:29 -0700 (PDT), John Henry wrote:

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've
done

everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to
improving the world around me, including helping those who are
still

caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and
hope;

to

show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't
worthy of

life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and
they

can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've
learned

to

do.

Well, you _say_ you've learned it -- but man, I just mention one
video and suddenly your life is the freakin' French Connection. �

��️

All I know is I see these multiple people in a venue describing
someone

in pain. Maybe they're wrong. Heck, maybe you're a troll
cooked up by Janithor.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter. I found a video, and I was going to
post

it anyway, but realized there's at least one person reading this
froup

that could really use it, as well as the associated videos.

BTW, sometimes it's found that a general attitude shared by society
is viewed by those that don't adhere to it as somehow "all those
people

who agree with each other are in cahoots."

Finally, I'll be pedantic for a second: "slander" is verbal
defamation.

When it's written, it's called "libel". And if you _really_ haven't
been reading this group -- well, that was fortuitous that you
happened

by when that video link was front-and-center.

Did you look at it? It might help you get rid of some of
the self-judgments, which can come from an internal
critic being wound up very tight. Or help others with a
similar malady, should you come across anyone who might
need that help.

But it sounds like you're taking care of yourself, and that's
good to hear. I'm not sure if it's this video or another, but
Heidi talks about how the resulting attachment style can leave
one with alternating grandiose ideas about themselves, followed
by abject disgust with oneself. For sake of discussion, I'll
refer to that as "ego-whiplash":

Are you suffering from this syndrome?

--
-c

Eh. Hard saying from inside the bubble, but it's not inaccurate.

Weren't you "leaving" this newsgroup for the 1000th time?

Also, heya fuckface. Rant any more about me on social media lately?
Or has the halo over your head prevented you from accessing your
computer?

I'm betting it's the tall pedestal he alone inhabits that he uses to
look down on everyone else.

It's also super typical of bipolar II, which is one of my diagnoses.

I diagnose you with being a paranoid douchebag with narcissism and
delusional thinking.

Don't forget the weapons grade sense of entitlement that's only balanced
out by a lack of self awareness.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: of all the people in this
convers

ation, there's only one who's ever admitted they have been wrong or
made bad decisions. Might want to keep that in mind as you observe.

Here's the thing that gets lost though: Not everyone wants to be like
you, you stupid asshole. Take the bag of pity you carry around and put
it over your head. Make sure it's plastic, first.

I wish to subscribe to your newsletter and apply as a henchcritter.

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Creon wrote:

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 20:04:30 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

I prefer to save my compassion and charity for those that need and
appreciate it rather than take it for granted.

Agreed for the general case, but that
sets-up a baseline fallacy.

Some people will be grateful to you, and society, once they have
reached a fulfilling life; but while undergoing the transition to that relative utopia, they may take your for granted. (Or worse:
they hate your guts.)

Does that make sense?

(This doesn't even address the compassion one feels for Alzheimer's
patients and their families, even if the patient has started to act
in a disagreeable way, maybe even abusive toward family members who come
to visit.)

no one comes to visit

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On Friday, July 14, 2023 at 2:43:35 PM UTC-4, John Henry wrote:

Also, watch this behavior, as exhibited by one sockpuppet while I was typing:

de·com·pen·sa·tion
noun
Psychiatry
the failure to generate effective psychological coping mechanisms in response to stress, resulting in personality disturbance or disintegration, especially that which causes relapse in schizophrenia.

Watch what? This is you more than anyone.

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John Henry <johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com> wrote in news:162ccb3a-2f61-4611-917e-cf38c72015fen@googlegroups.com:

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 10:05:26 AM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman
#274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
news:tiMrM.197045$edH5....@fx11.iad:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

"Checkmate <moderat...@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave...@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f18dc08...@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading
posts

by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say
the

following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim.
So

how best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will
read!

That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but
it's hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So are
a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners selfish,
please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll
realize, it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a
clearinghouse,

helping guide those in need to net.resources: for digging
themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks...
we have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in
over 4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of
2018. Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15
years before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a
well despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the
content.

His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after
he was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used
cigarettes he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide
and

confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total of
10 dollars for the month of June.

I hope the healing message I sent him didn't scare him off.

He could be someone someday. Who knows?

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds
of

hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out on
cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking
heavily on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill
myself via narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just
shoot myself in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in
which my posts weren't fortified with at least three different
drugs, and often twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

You don't have John himself posting to the froup. (Meanwhile,
Perfessor Mojibake can't keep from scribbling in a.c.)

But we do! His Laz Mann sockpuppet posts every now and then to shill
and

beg for money.

Suspecting you don't have John himself posting in RSPW because
his is a suspected anxious-avoidant attachment
strategy. (I wouldn't expect him to post, it's too
hostile for him.)

No, it's because John's last explicit appearance as Net.Bastard was
such

an overwhelming failure that he has no desire to own up to his rants.
He's stopped in and attempted to be someone else since. Don't
overanalyze it.

All of this is bullshit. This person - who is almost certainly not
Dave Zimmerman, as I can't recall a single time Dave and I ever had
hostility nor can I think of any reason he'd be involved; the last I
heard anything about him he'd supposedly moved to Australia or
something after a woman in the UK he was trying to hook up with dumped
him - has spent the last twenty-five years or so hiding behind
sockpuppets and recruiting petit trolls and harassers to do his dirty
work for him, while hiding behind an army of sockpuppets and fake
names and leveraging the various helpful aspects of different websites
and social media networks to conceal his identity. They know I tend
to REALLY piss off a small set of folks, and they feed those folks and encourage them to escalate and propagate all the BS, so as to ensure
nobody can be held directly responsible for any of it.

This is the first time I've posted to this group since 2018. The only
reason I'm here now is because I googled my name on a whim and
realized that this is a huge part of the reason I can't get a job at
all beyond schtupping canned goods at a grocery store or digging
ditches, neither of which I'm physically able to do anymore due to
various wear and tear related to aging - I'm fifty-two.

When I stopped by here at the end of 2018 - at the encouragement of a "friend" - I was here for half an hour, took one look at the place,
and went "no fuckin' way, the few people left here are completely out
of their tree, fuck. all. this." That was after having left back in
2005 because I founded a non-profit theater group and didn't want this
person and their fellow travelers hassling a bunch of kids.

I've never made a secret of my "secrets." I was strung out on coke
for a dozen years, up until '99. I was a physically abusive boyfriend
and father; the latter debatable even by current standards (this is a
country that loves corporal punishment!), and I've been very open
about that in public in the hope that by doing so I could encourage
others suffering from similar mental health issues to get help and get better.

This person - whose identity I don't know with certainty, but it's one
of two, to 95%CI - has been playing this game for at least two
decades. They've contacted my family multiple times; one of them
spent a few years soliciting nudes from my then-underage daughter.
They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a very
slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now is
partially compromised; I genuinely have no idea how they even knew
where I was, let alone who I was with, as the two of us go quite far
back and have mutual acquaintances, and we both were very much not
interested in any of them (including members of my family) know of the connection, but they were in my roommate's ear within a week or so of
my moving in here.

There are at least two people involved here who are pathologically
obsessed with me. One of them has encouraged the other to believe
that I'm posting here under all these sockpuppets and playing all
these games but the truth is I've been trying to shake the stink of
this dump out of my hair for basically two decades now.

I suspect the biggest problem is that many years ago I ended up
jaw-flapping my way into the wrestling business where I had a great
time and met some famous people, and they wanted that but didn't have
any of the necessary skills or attributes to make it happen. And I
walked away. I've been focused mostly on political activism and
writing since then, and haven't looked back.

I had believed that my increasing difficulty in finding any job that
involves so much as a cursory background check was related to that
activity - leftist anti-capitalist anti-corporate authoritarian with a personality and solid stage presence, if I'm an employer I can
understand how I wouldn't hire that guy he's gonna come in and
unionize my shop and be a rabble-rouser, turn us in to OSHA for
cutting corners or whatever. Hell, he's "ANTIFA," and "we all know"
they're "terrorists." Cost of doing business; if you're gonna fight
city hall, you gotta expect city hall's gonna fight back. I'm
fighting plutocracy and oligarchy and the rise of American fascism and ultimately capitalism itself - it's an unsustainable poison in our
culture and world, compromising integrity and creating conflict of
interest in everything it touches including health care, education,
media, and criminal justice - and it stands to reason that those who
are participating in capitalism would not want to help fund that
because they see it as a threat to their way of life (which it is,
because collectively our way of life is shit and has to change or
we're just not gonna last much longer). So I kind of just went 'eh,'
took the hit, kept up my work, and have relied on crowdfunding and
what little menial labor work I could find to survive.

A couple of days ago, on a whim, I googled my full name, and found
this ungodly shitpile with my name all over it, stretching back
decades. It's not unintentional that my full name is used so
frequently; the entire point of that is to do precisely what has been
done, which is to ensure that anyone googling me runs smack into a
litany of supposed offenses ranging from farting in church to grand
larceny to child abuse to DUI. It shows up before anything, including
my own websites.

This is why I've spent the last fifteen years or so having great
interviews and feeling like I probably had a gig, only to get that
classic phone call of Jim Crow and other sub-surface discrimination:
"sorry, we found another candidate." This is why I don't have a gig
now with someone like Progress Michigan or the ACLU or the campaigns
of progressive candidates like Sanders or Tlaib.

In the main these people can't stand me because they wish they had the
spine to BE me, to face all the crap that's been piled on and survive
and keep fighting, because they know they wouldn't be able to. This
is why one of them encouraged me to have myself committed - all in "friendship" and "concern" of course - because they've been 5150'd
multiple times and they're pissed that I haven't. There are other
things that I'm not going to go into detail about here and now, for
reasons of my own...but those reasons aren't to hide anything about
myself beyond what I'm doing right now aside from writing this
message.

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," there have
been 160+ conversations in this group about me *this year*. You
should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," these people
know so much about me and my life - I've never mentioned my roommate's
name in public, and neither has she.

It started off, some 25+ years ago, being a bunch of dumbasses playing wrassler on the internet, cutting stupid promos and pretending to be
all that stuff for giggles. Then a few people started crossing lines, interfering with people's jobs (the first time it happened to me was
in 1997 I think, at NCSU). Then when those targeted swung back and
landed a few hits of their own, the psychos really lost it and
escalated. As I said above, eventually it got to the point where it
wasn't worth participating given the level of BS in unrelated life
that it created, and I walked away.

There's nothing a narcissist hates more than being ignored, and it
appears at least two - possibly more, I have no way of knowing for
sure, that's part of their game - narcissists have made me the focus
of blame for their failed and miserable lives, and have worked quite a
bit harder than I'd realized up until the last couple of days to
ensure my life was just as failed and miserable as theirs. Except
unlike them, I don't have a trail of insecure but affluent women
stretching back over the last three decades that I've stolen from and
beat on and abused; I stopped dating in March of 2001 for various
reasons, all of them related to not wanting to get involved in a
relationship again until I could do so in a healthy way and get my insecurities and fears and such under control. Unlike them, I admit I
*have* a daughter. Unlike them, I haven't made up stories about
joining the military to cover having my ass rubber-roomed. Unlike
them, I haven't made the last twenty years about making other people's
lives miserable and hurting people because it's the only thing I know
how to do.

And unlike them, I'm not cross-posting all of this to every troll farm
and harassment base etc. I can find in the hopes of recruiting them to
join in on the harassment.

I haven't "reinvented myself," ever. I haven't even cut my hair in
almost 15 years and other than a lot of gray and some extra pounds
look exactly like I did when I was 20. Other than pissing around on
Usenet back in the mid-late 90s and early 2000s (as above), I've never
tried to hide my identity or pretend to be anyone else but who I am.
I haven't "deleted my work" or tried to "hide" thing - everything I've
ever put on the web is readily available through the wayback machine.
That said, I do tend to block and ban harassers and the kinds of
wet-fart personalities who do psycho shit like posting lie after lie
after lie to comment sections on my social media pages and then claim
I'm "hiding something" when I boot them.

That's part of their problem, you see - they hide behind technology
and arcane systems that are easy to spoof and hide your identity on,
and that most people including the vast majority of law enforcement
don't understand. I just got off the phone with MIAG, and I had to
explain to them what USENET is. Their answer is "well just have your
lawyer (hah!) contact google and delete the messages." The girl on
the phone at the FBI was audibly eyerolling as soon as I said
"internet."

Understand that *I am an antifascist, anti-authoritarian, left-wing
small-L libertarian, i.e. "ansoc," anarcho-socialist. I believe the
only valid functions of government are regulation of commerce and
industry, and protecting the general public from psychotic losers like
this.

Unfortunately we don't live in that world. Indeed, to a certain point
they even have "the right" to say what they want. Of course that
right ends firmly at slander, but that doesn't really matter when you
can't even canonically identify who's involved, now does it? What am
I gonna do, sue a sockpuppet?

These people want to see me ended because they can't live up to who I
am at my worst, and they don't even want you to see me at my best.
That's why there are 160 conversations about me in six months, in a
newsgroup I haven't given serious thought in nearly twenty years.

A few months ago, one of the primary actors, who I believe is in a
major decompensation event after I finally told them to get the hell
out of my world and stay out, started feeding a random FB dick I was
arguing with this information, and in doing so provided me with
sufficient evidence to be 99.8% certain who that person was - and I'd suspected them for a very long time, suspicions that were also
confirmed by various behavioral tics and such in our interactions over
time. Then when I found all this a couple of days ago, it got to
99.9.

There's really only a few people in the world who have both the
technical know-how and the motivation to do this to me. I can think
of exactly two by name...and I'm beginning to suspect that much of the alleged involvement of Dink in all of this is also a smokescreen
because he's such a moron it's easy to think he'd be responsible. And
I think he's got his hands in, because he's a psycho loser and we've
all known that for twenty-five years, but frankly he appears to have
enough going on in his life to simply not have this much free time on
his hands, and if he offered to just let it all drop and walk
away...well, I'd be doing the same thing I have been, which is
forgetting about him (at least until a "friend" shows up pretending to
be him and brings it up again).

But it's not all him, and I suspect he's been manipulated a bit by the
other one...just like pretty much everybody dogpiling these threads
has. Of course I can't "prove," because that's the point. To make me
seem "paranoid" and "delusional" and maybe get frustrated enough to
get my ass thrown in a rubber room like he did.

In the end, they hate my spirit because they're ashamed of themselves
- far too ashamed to admit to anyone who they are or what they do, or
to come out from behind the sockpuppets and fake accounts and
AI-generated bullshit - and they see me being ashamed and owning it,
knowing they don't have the guts to measure up to that, and since they
can't rise to my level, all they have left is to drag me down to
theirs...and it's literally driving them nuts that they can't.

I know what my sins and crimes are, and I've been quite public about
owning up to them - as you can clearly see. Have I posted a
fourth-step inventory to the world? No. It's not necessary and it
would only serve to open old wounds and possibly cause harm in the
very act of trying to reduce or make amends for that harm. That's why
the 9th step includes the caveat "...wherever possible, except when to
do so would injure them or others." Sometimes it's not possible,
sometimes the attempt would do further harm. There are plenty of such
things that have been done to me, as well, and there won't be amends
made for those. Some amends can't be made, some mistakes can't be
un-made, and sometimes the only thing you can do is say "well, that
sucked," and keep on moving forward and living your life.

That's what I've been trying to do for twenty years, and these weirdos
just will. not. let. go.

I've done everything I could to complete that step. I've made my
amends to those I've harmed whenever possible, except when to do so
would injure them or others; and I've changed my behavior to avoid
harming anyone else - including flat-out avoiding any sort of physical relationship for 18 years. I've tried to help others. In some cases,
that help was turned on me and shoved into my back like a blade, but
that's gonna happen sometimes when you're trying to help people who
are addicts and suffering with serious mental illness and dysfunction.

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to
improving the world around me, including helping those who are still
caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope;
to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy
of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and
they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've
learned to do. There's nothing else I *can* do in most cases short of hara-kiri, and while I live with major depressive disorder and there's
not a day that goes by that I don't think of killing myself at least
once, it's just thoughts. I'm not going to do that, because I still
have good work to do in this world, and I'm not going to let anyone, including myself, stop me from doing it.

And that, more than anything else, is why a couple of badly broken,
deranged, and psychotic narcissists have been up my ass like a
colonoscopy for twenty years.

Anyone who is buying in to this is being played for a patsy by a
psycho, and the psycho isn't me.

I don't hide. I don't sock up and pretend to be other people. I
don't work back-channel and in the shadows, dealing in rumor and
innuendo and faked screenshots and exploiting addiction and
desperation and even just the petty venality of punch-down trolling to
hurt people who I know I have no valid reason to hurt.

I'm no prince, no messiah, no "great good man." I've done some pretty
rotten things in my life, and I'm doing what I can to balance that.

These people don't want that to happen, because if it does then
they're left with nothing but to look at their own failure to address
their own issues and know that the failure is indeed their own.

Don't get sucked in to it. You're being used and manipulated by at
least one, probably two, and maybe several psychotic narcissists who
have been caught in a feedback loop of blaming me for their problems
for over half their lives.

Now I'm leaving again, and I don't intend to be back. Stop falling
for this "oh it's JH in a sock" shit. It isn't. If I've got
something to say, I'll say it loud and clear with my own face and
voice, just as I always have.

I hope those of you who have spent half your lives up my ass manage to
get the help you so clearly and desperately need.

PS: I'm not naming the "friend" because I'm not going to give them
anything to hang their own lawsuit on, just as I didn't interfere in
their abusive relationships because if I did, they'd blame me for
those relationships collapsing. You all know who I mean.

Best,
John Henry DeJong
Kalamazoo, MI

lol

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John Henry <johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com> wrote:

They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a
very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now
is partially compromised

There is a very good chance that the PC owned by John Henry DeJong is compromised or infected because of his own willingness to seek out
questionable material in the dark corners of the surface web and
beyond.

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Taro Tsujimoto <tsujimoto@sabres.com> wrote:

John Henry <johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com> wrote:

They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a
very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now
is partially compromised

There is a very good chance that the PC owned by John Henry DeJong is compromised or infected because of his own willingness to seek out questionable material in the dark corners of the surface web and
beyond.

Are you regretting your many years of friendship and cohabitation?

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On Wednesday, July 19, 2023 at 6:32:44 AM UTC-4, ]v[etaphoid wrote:

Taro Tsujimoto <tsuj...@sabres.com> wrote:

John Henry <johnhenry...@gmail.com> wrote:

They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a
very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now
is partially compromised

There is a very good chance that the PC owned by John Henry DeJong is compromised or infected because of his own willingness to seek out questionable material in the dark corners of the surface web and
beyond.

Are you regretting your many years of friendship and cohabitation?

Today JOHN HENRY DEJONG spouts off about gas lighting, and narcissists trying to manipulate you.
As he goes on about why you should go to work but send him your hard earned money because he is too busy to work and is so much smarter than you and you should help him save humanity!!!
Who is the gas lighting narcissist again?

He also asks for advice on why his "fundraising" only works when its an emergency. But blocks comments so how many can really reply?
Here ya go JOHN HENRY DEJONG- the reason is people are generally kind. They dive in when you panic and cry. What you insist is "work", isn't. No one is buying those ridiculous self involved tirades. They are not paying you for it because it is shit, and
is pretty much the same thing as the guy who runs out and cleans my windshield I never asked for and then demands money for it. At least that guy only asks for a couple bucks (vs maybe...half a billion?!?) and is outside actually exerting some effort.

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Kara Mac <karamcnamara0630@gmail.com> wrote in news:964f8929-e722-4006-b1d9-3281c1332ba1n@googlegroups.com:

On Wednesday, July 19, 2023 at 6:32:44 AM UTC-4, ]v[etaphoid wrote:

Taro Tsujimoto <tsuj...@sabres.com> wrote:

John Henry <johnhenry...@gmail.com> wrote:

They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a
very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now
is partially compromised

There is a very good chance that the PC owned by John Henry DeJong
is compromised or infected because of his own willingness to seek
out questionable material in the dark corners of the surface web
and beyond.

Are you regretting your many years of friendship and cohabitation?

Today JOHN HENRY DEJONG spouts off about gas lighting, and narcissists
trying to manipulate you.

The remorseless mooch known as JOHN HENRY DEJONG didn't mention
projection only because he didn't want to be seen as a complete
hypocrite.

As he goes on about why you should go to work but send him your hard
earned money because he is too busy to work and is so much smarter
than you and you should help him save humanity!!! Who is the gas
lighting narcissist again?

For the gaslighting piece, it depends on the number of people who fall
for his decades old and weak sob stories. There's rarely a cure for his
type of narcissism, even with a self-professed 150+ IQ, he can't see it.

He also asks for advice on why his "fundraising" only works when its
an emergency. But blocks comments so how many can really reply? Here
ya go JOHN HENRY DEJONG- the reason is people are generally kind. They
dive in when you panic and cry. What you insist is "work", isn't. No
one is buying those ridiculous self involved tirades. They are not
paying you for it because it is shit, and is pretty much the same
thing as the guy who runs out and cleans my windshield I never asked
for and then demands money for it. At least that guy only asks for a
couple bucks (vs maybe...half a billion?!?) and is outside actually
exerting some effort.

We've all seen what happens when JOHN HENRY DEJONG has to live off the
quality of his "content" and amount of effort he puts in.

Oh, the guy who cleans windshields? I don't begrudge him the money. He
gives you some effort and a visible result.

PS: You want serious content?

https://twitter.com/JuliusGoat
https://armoxon.substack.com/

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On Wednesday, July 19, 2023 at 10:39:17 AM UTC-4, Kara Mac wrote:

On Wednesday, July 19, 2023 at 6:32:44 AM UTC-4, ]v[etaphoid wrote:

Taro Tsujimoto <tsuj...@sabres.com> wrote:

John Henry <johnhenry...@gmail.com> wrote:

They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a
very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now
is partially compromised

There is a very good chance that the PC owned by John Henry DeJong is compromised or infected because of his own willingness to seek out questionable material in the dark corners of the surface web and
beyond.

Are you regretting your many years of friendship and cohabitation?

Today JOHN HENRY DEJONG spouts off about gas lighting, and narcissists trying to manipulate you.
As he goes on about why you should go to work but send him your hard earned money because he is too busy to work and is so much smarter than you and you should help him save humanity!!!
Who is the gas lighting narcissist again?

He also asks for advice on why his "fundraising" only works when its an emergency. But blocks comments so how many can really reply?
Here ya go JOHN HENRY DEJONG- the reason is people are generally kind. They dive in when you panic and cry. What you insist is "work", isn't. No one is buying those ridiculous self involved tirades. They are not paying you for it because it is shit,

and is pretty much the same thing as the guy who runs out and cleans my windshield I never asked for and then demands money for it. At least that guy only asks for a couple bucks (vs maybe...half a billion?!?) and is outside actually exerting some effort.

JOHN HENRY DEJONG aka JOHN HENRY is not exactly the brightest bulb on the shelf, more of a five-watt.
But you should still give him money, because he is fighting those enemies!
Who the fuck they are, no one but him knows, but he's fighting them, damn it!

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Taro Tsujimoto <tsujimoto@sabres.com> wrote in news:u97jcf$3123s$1@paganini.bofh.team:

John Henry <johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com> wrote:

They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a
very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now
is partially compromised

There is a very good chance that the PC owned by John Henry DeJong is compromised or infected because of his own willingness to seek out questionable material in the dark corners of the surface web and
beyond.

Even some crapware JOHN HENRY DEJONG loaded on his computer from porn
sites isn't necessary to compromise himself. Though I have little doubt
that's it's happened.

Just for shits and giggles I asked a contact to look JOHN HENRY DEJONG
up and in extremely general terms with no specifics tell me what he
found on some of less savory parts of the web. The verdict: JOHN HENRY
DEJONG is one depraved individual.

The best quote: "I feel like taking twenty showers after looking at that scuzzbucket."

The problem with lookups like that is that it trips a few flags and it's entirely possible someone from a three letter acronym is looking into
why someone would be looking at a destitute scumbag like JOHN HENRY
DEJONG.

All that shit JOHN HENRY DEJONG spouts about ethics? Bushwa.
All that shit about JOHN HENRY DEJONG making up for his past? GTFO.

JOHN HENRY DEJONG doesn't really understand how many fingerprints he's
left. And that's from a cursory check. I'm sure there's a lot more
things someone could find if they ask in the right places.

I just assumed JOHN HENRY DEJONG was paranoid because he's a fucking
nutcase. I've discovered that it's also probably because he really
should be. Sleep well, mooch. That clock is ticking.

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"Davey Zimmerman #274" <Chadweasel274@zoho.com> wrote:

Taro Tsujimoto <tsujimoto@sabres.com> wrote in news:u97jcf$3123s$1@paganini.bofh.team:

John Henry <johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com> wrote:

They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my
current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a
very slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using
now is partially compromised

There is a very good chance that the PC owned by John Henry
DeJong is compromised or infected because of his own willingness
to seek out questionable material in the dark corners of the
surface web and beyond.

Even some crapware JOHN HENRY DEJONG loaded on his computer from
porn sites isn't necessary to compromise himself. Though I have
little doubt that's it's happened.

Just for shits and giggles I asked a contact to look JOHN HENRY
DEJONG up and in extremely general terms with no specifics tell me
what he found on some of less savory parts of the web. The
verdict: JOHN HENRY DEJONG is one depraved individual.

The best quote: "I feel like taking twenty showers after looking
at that scuzzbucket."

The problem with lookups like that is that it trips a few flags
and it's entirely possible someone from a three letter acronym is
looking into why someone would be looking at a destitute scumbag
like JOHN HENRY DEJONG.

All that shit JOHN HENRY DEJONG spouts about ethics? Bushwa.
All that shit about JOHN HENRY DEJONG making up for his past?
GTFO.

JOHN HENRY DEJONG doesn't really understand how many fingerprints
he's left. And that's from a cursory check. I'm sure there's a lot
more things someone could find if they ask in the right places.

I just assumed JOHN HENRY DEJONG was paranoid because he's a
fucking nutcase. I've discovered that it's also probably because
he really should be. Sleep well, mooch. That clock is ticking.

Since John Henry's post as Valentine Smith shows that he has a Linux
system now, it should be noted that Linux is a popular choice for
people who want to use TOR to search out very unsavory content.

But the XPN news program John Henry DeJong used to post that message
hasn't been part of Ubuntu since version 18.04, which is now
unsupported. That means the TOR software he's probably running on
that system is also old and unsupported. It would be a shame for him
to walk right into a DHS honeypot of scum just because he wanted to
fap to teenage girls.

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John Henry <johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com> wrote:

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 10:05:26 AM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
news:tiMrM.197045$edH5....@fx11.iad:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274 wrote:

"Checkmate <moderat...@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave...@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f18dc08...@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading posts >>>>> by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say the
following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim. So >>>>>>> how best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will read! >>>>>>>
That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but it's
hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So are
a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners selfish,
please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll realize,
it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a clearinghouse, >>>>>> helping guide those in need to net.resources: for digging
themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks... we
have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in over
4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of 2018.
Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15 years
before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a well
despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the content.
His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after he
was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used cigarettes
he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide and
confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total of 10
dollars for the month of June.

I hope the healing message I sent him didn't scare him off.

He could be someone someday. Who knows?

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds of
hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out on
cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking heavily
on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill myself via
narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just shoot myself
in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in which my posts
weren't fortified with at least three different drugs, and often
twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

You don't have John himself posting to the froup. (Meanwhile,
Perfessor Mojibake can't keep from scribbling in a.c.)

But we do! His Laz Mann sockpuppet posts every now and then to shill and
beg for money.

Suspecting you don't have John himself posting in RSPW because
his is a suspected anxious-avoidant attachment
strategy. (I wouldn't expect him to post, it's too
hostile for him.)

No, it's because John's last explicit appearance as Net.Bastard was such
an overwhelming failure that he has no desire to own up to his rants.
He's stopped in and attempted to be someone else since. Don't
overanalyze it.

All of this is bullshit. This person - who is almost certainly not Dave Zimmerman, as I can't recall a single time Dave and I ever had hostility
nor can I think of any reason he'd be involved; the last I heard anything about him he'd supposedly moved to Australia or something after a woman
in the UK he was trying to hook up with dumped him - has spent the last twenty-five years or so hiding behind sockpuppets and recruiting petit
trolls and harassers to do his dirty work for him, while hiding behind an army of sockpuppets and fake names and leveraging the various helpful
aspects of different websites and social media networks to conceal his identity. They know I tend to REALLY piss off a small set of folks, and
they feed those folks and encourage them to escalate and propagate all
the BS, so as to ensure nobody can be held directly responsible for any of it.

This is the first time I've posted to this group since 2018. The only
reason I'm here now is because I googled my name on a whim and realized
that this is a huge part of the reason I can't get a job at all beyond schtupping canned goods at a grocery store or digging ditches, neither of which I'm physically able to do anymore due to various wear and tear
related to aging - I'm fifty-two.

When I stopped by here at the end of 2018 - at the encouragement of a "friend" - I was here for half an hour, took one look at the place, and
went "no fuckin' way, the few people left here are completely out of
their tree, fuck. all. this." That was after having left back in 2005 because I founded a non-profit theater group and didn't want this person
and their fellow travelers hassling a bunch of kids.

I've never made a secret of my "secrets." I was strung out on coke for a dozen years, up until '99. I was a physically abusive boyfriend and
father; the latter debatable even by current standards (this is a country that loves corporal punishment!), and I've been very open about that in public in the hope that by doing so I could encourage others suffering
from similar mental health issues to get help and get better.

This person - whose identity I don't know with certainty, but it's one of two, to 95%CI - has been playing this game for at least two decades.
They've contacted my family multiple times; one of them spent a few years soliciting nudes from my then-underage daughter. They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current roommate before anyone
even knew I was living here. There is a very slim but non-zero
possibility that the computer I'm using now is partially compromised; I genuinely have no idea how they even knew where I was, let alone who I
was with, as the two of us go quite far back and have mutual
acquaintances, and we both were very much not interested in any of them (including members of my family) know of the connection, but they were in
my roommate's ear within a week or so of my moving in here.

There are at least two people involved here who are pathologically
obsessed with me. One of them has encouraged the other to believe that
I'm posting here under all these sockpuppets and playing all these games
but the truth is I've been trying to shake the stink of this dump out of
my hair for basically two decades now.

I suspect the biggest problem is that many years ago I ended up
jaw-flapping my way into the wrestling business where I had a great time
and met some famous people, and they wanted that but didn't have any of
the necessary skills or attributes to make it happen. And I walked away.
I've been focused mostly on political activism and writing since then,
and haven't looked back.

I had believed that my increasing difficulty in finding any job that
involves so much as a cursory background check was related to that
activity - leftist anti-capitalist anti-corporate authoritarian with a personality and solid stage presence, if I'm an employer I can understand
how I wouldn't hire that guy he's gonna come in and unionize my shop and
be a rabble-rouser, turn us in to OSHA for cutting corners or whatever.
Hell, he's "ANTIFA," and "we all know" they're "terrorists." Cost of
doing business; if you're gonna fight city hall, you gotta expect city
hall's gonna fight back. I'm fighting plutocracy and oligarchy and the
rise of American fascism and ultimately capitalism itself - it's an unsustainable poison in our culture and world, compromising integrity and creating conflict of interest in everything it touches including health
care, education, media, and criminal justice - and it stands to reason
that those who are participating in capitalism would not want to help
fund that because they see it as a threat to their way of life (which it
is, because collectively our way of life is shit and has to change or
we're just not gonna last much longer). So I kind of just went 'eh,'
took the hit, kept up my work, and have relied on crowdfunding and what little menial labor work I could find to survive.

A couple of days ago, on a whim, I googled my full name, and found this ungodly shitpile with my name all over it, stretching back decades. It's
not unintentional that my full name is used so frequently; the entire
point of that is to do precisely what has been done, which is to ensure
that anyone googling me runs smack into a litany of supposed offenses
ranging from farting in church to grand larceny to child abuse to DUI.
It shows up before anything, including my own websites.

This is why I've spent the last fifteen years or so having great
interviews and feeling like I probably had a gig, only to get that
classic phone call of Jim Crow and other sub-surface discrimination:
"sorry, we found another candidate." This is why I don't have a gig now
with someone like Progress Michigan or the ACLU or the campaigns of progressive candidates like Sanders or Tlaib.

In the main these people can't stand me because they wish they had the
spine to BE me, to face all the crap that's been piled on and survive and keep fighting, because they know they wouldn't be able to. This is why
one of them encouraged me to have myself committed - all in "friendship"
and "concern" of course - because they've been 5150'd multiple times and they're pissed that I haven't. There are other things that I'm not going
to go into detail about here and now, for reasons of my own...but those reasons aren't to hide anything about myself beyond what I'm doing right
now aside from writing this message.

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," there have
been 160+ conversations in this group about me *this year*. You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," these people know so
much about me and my life - I've never mentioned my roommate's name in public, and neither has she.

It started off, some 25+ years ago, being a bunch of dumbasses playing wrassler on the internet, cutting stupid promos and pretending to be all
that stuff for giggles. Then a few people started crossing lines, interfering with people's jobs (the first time it happened to me was in
1997 I think, at NCSU). Then when those targeted swung back and landed a
few hits of their own, the psychos really lost it and escalated. As I
said above, eventually it got to the point where it wasn't worth participating given the level of BS in unrelated life that it created, and I walked away.

There's nothing a narcissist hates more than being ignored, and it
appears at least two - possibly more, I have no way of knowing for sure, that's part of their game - narcissists have made me the focus of blame
for their failed and miserable lives, and have worked quite a bit harder
than I'd realized up until the last couple of days to ensure my life was
just as failed and miserable as theirs. Except unlike them, I don't have
a trail of insecure but affluent women stretching back over the last
three decades that I've stolen from and beat on and abused; I stopped
dating in March of 2001 for various reasons, all of them related to not wanting to get involved in a relationship again until I could do so in a healthy way and get my insecurities and fears and such under control.
Unlike them, I admit I *have* a daughter. Unlike them, I haven't made up stories about joining the military to cover having my ass rubber-roomed. Unlike them, I haven't made the last twenty years about making other
people's lives miserable and hurting people because it's the only thing I know how to do.

And unlike them, I'm not cross-posting all of this to every troll farm
and harassment base etc. I can find in the hopes of recruiting them to
join in on the harassment.

I haven't "reinvented myself," ever. I haven't even cut my hair in
almost 15 years and other than a lot of gray and some extra pounds look exactly like I did when I was 20. Other than pissing around on Usenet
back in the mid-late 90s and early 2000s (as above), I've never tried to
hide my identity or pretend to be anyone else but who I am. I haven't "deleted my work" or tried to "hide" thing - everything I've ever put on
the web is readily available through the wayback machine. That said, I
do tend to block and ban harassers and the kinds of wet-fart
personalities who do psycho shit like posting lie after lie after lie to comment sections on my social media pages and then claim I'm "hiding something" when I boot them.

That's part of their problem, you see - they hide behind technology and arcane systems that are easy to spoof and hide your identity on, and that most people including the vast majority of law enforcement don't
understand. I just got off the phone with MIAG, and I had to explain to
them what USENET is. Their answer is "well just have your lawyer (hah!) contact google and delete the messages." The girl on the phone at the
FBI was audibly eyerolling as soon as I said "internet."

Understand that *I am an antifascist, anti-authoritarian, left-wing
small-L libertarian, i.e. "ansoc," anarcho-socialist. I believe the only valid functions of government are regulation of commerce and industry,
and protecting the general public from psychotic losers like this.

Unfortunately we don't live in that world. Indeed, to a certain point
they even have "the right" to say what they want. Of course that right
ends firmly at slander, but that doesn't really matter when you can't
even canonically identify who's involved, now does it? What am I gonna
do, sue a sockpuppet?

These people want to see me ended because they can't live up to who I am
at my worst, and they don't even want you to see me at my best. That's
why there are 160 conversations about me in six months, in a newsgroup I haven't given serious thought in nearly twenty years.

A few months ago, one of the primary actors, who I believe is in a major decompensation event after I finally told them to get the hell out of my world and stay out, started feeding a random FB dick I was arguing with
this information, and in doing so provided me with sufficient evidence to
be 99.8% certain who that person was - and I'd suspected them for a very
long time, suspicions that were also confirmed by various behavioral tics
and such in our interactions over time. Then when I found all this a
couple of days ago, it got to 99.9.

There's really only a few people in the world who have both the technical know-how and the motivation to do this to me. I can think of exactly two
by name...and I'm beginning to suspect that much of the alleged
involvement of Dink in all of this is also a smokescreen because he's
such a moron it's easy to think he'd be responsible. And I think he's
got his hands in, because he's a psycho loser and we've all known that
for twenty-five years, but frankly he appears to have enough going on in
his life to simply not have this much free time on his hands, and if he offered to just let it all drop and walk away...well, I'd be doing the
same thing I have been, which is forgetting about him (at least until a "friend" shows up pretending to be him and brings it up again).

But it's not all him, and I suspect he's been manipulated a bit by the
other one...just like pretty much everybody dogpiling these threads has.
Of course I can't "prove," because that's the point. To make me seem "paranoid" and "delusional" and maybe get frustrated enough to get my ass thrown in a rubber room like he did.

In the end, they hate my spirit because they're ashamed of themselves -
far too ashamed to admit to anyone who they are or what they do, or to
come out from behind the sockpuppets and fake accounts and AI-generated bullshit - and they see me being ashamed and owning it, knowing they
don't have the guts to measure up to that, and since they can't rise to
my level, all they have left is to drag me down to theirs...and it's literally driving them nuts that they can't.

I know what my sins and crimes are, and I've been quite public about
owning up to them - as you can clearly see. Have I posted a fourth-step inventory to the world? No. It's not necessary and it would only serve
to open old wounds and possibly cause harm in the very act of trying to reduce or make amends for that harm. That's why the 9th step includes
the caveat "...wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them
or others." Sometimes it's not possible, sometimes the attempt would do further harm. There are plenty of such things that have been done to me,
as well, and there won't be amends made for those. Some amends can't be made, some mistakes can't be un-made, and sometimes the only thing you
can do is say "well, that sucked," and keep on moving forward and living your life.

That's what I've been trying to do for twenty years, and these weirdos
just will. not. let. go.

I've done everything I could to complete that step. I've made my amends
to those I've harmed whenever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others; and I've changed my behavior to avoid harming anyone else
- including flat-out avoiding any sort of physical relationship for 18
years. I've tried to help others. In some cases, that help was turned
on me and shoved into my back like a blade, but that's gonna happen
sometimes when you're trying to help people who are addicts and suffering with serious mental illness and dysfunction.

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to improving
the world around me, including helping those who are still caught up in
that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope; to show people
who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy of life to find
their worth, to understand that they have value and they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've learned to do. There's
nothing else I *can* do in most cases short of hara-kiri, and while I
live with major depressive disorder and there's not a day that goes by
that I don't think of killing myself at least once, it's just thoughts.
I'm not going to do that, because I still have good work to do in this
world, and I'm not going to let anyone, including myself, stop me from doing it.

And that, more than anything else, is why a couple of badly broken,
deranged, and psychotic narcissists have been up my ass like a
colonoscopy for twenty years.

Anyone who is buying in to this is being played for a patsy by a psycho,
and the psycho isn't me.

I don't hide. I don't sock up and pretend to be other people. I don't
work back-channel and in the shadows, dealing in rumor and innuendo and
faked screenshots and exploiting addiction and desperation and even just
the petty venality of punch-down trolling to hurt people who I know I
have no valid reason to hurt.

I'm no prince, no messiah, no "great good man." I've done some pretty
rotten things in my life, and I'm doing what I can to balance that.

These people don't want that to happen, because if it does then they're
left with nothing but to look at their own failure to address their own issues and know that the failure is indeed their own.

Don't get sucked in to it. You're being used and manipulated by at least one, probably two, and maybe several psychotic narcissists who have been caught in a feedback loop of blaming me for their problems for over half their lives.

Now I'm leaving again, and I don't intend to be back. Stop falling for
this "oh it's JH in a sock" shit. It isn't. If I've got something to
say, I'll say it loud and clear with my own face and voice, just as I always have.

I hope those of you who have spent half your lives up my ass manage to
get the help you so clearly and desperately need.

PS: I'm not naming the "friend" because I'm not going to give them
anything to hang their own lawsuit on, just as I didn't interfere in
their abusive relationships because if I did, they'd blame me for those relationships collapsing. You all know who I mean.

Best,
John Henry DeJong
Kalamazoo, MI

How do you respond to this, Chad?

--- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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]v[etaphoid Inc. <met@mormonia.com> wrote in ]news:un64a6$3kpnd$1@dont-email.me:

John Henry <johnhenry.us.dejong@gmail.com> wrote:

On Thursday, July 13, 2023 at 10:05:26 AM UTC-4, Davey Zimmerman
#274 wrote:

Creon <cr...@creon.earth> wrote in
news:tiMrM.197045$edH5....@fx11.iad:

On Thu, 13 Jul 2023 02:37:57 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

"Checkmate <moderat...@baseball.bat>" <oo.dave...@ass.worm>
wrote in news:MPG.3f18dc08...@usnews.blocknews.net:

Warning! Always wear ANSI approved safety goggles when reading
posts by Checkmate.

On Wed, 12 Jul 2023 08:51:29 GMT, Creon had the audacity to say
the following:

On Sun, 9 Jul 2023 14:32:50 -0000 (UTC), Davey Zimmerman #274
wrote:

John is trolling for new victims by telling how he's a victim. >>>>>>>> So how best to do that? Start off with a rant that nobody will >>>>>>>> read!

That's how a genius with an IQ of 150 thinks.

This is for John:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipJIV6hc1Ls

It's a 38 minute video. Watch the first 5 minutes to see if it
interests you.

Take it in chunks: the psychologist lady is informative, but
it's hard work.

train tracks

C'mon, that's a sign of desperation. You are shame-bound. So are >>>>>>> a lot of people. Before you do yourself in in manners selfish,
please consider watching the video.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _

BTW, Davey -- I very much appreciate your candor and wit when
dealing with the gentleman's pity party. I'm hoping that he
watches the first 5 minutes of that video, because he'll
realize, it fits him to a T.

(I'm starting to unpack a bit of this in myself.)

(Might the world need some foundation that acts as a
clearinghouse, helping guide those in need to net.resources: for >>>>>>> digging themselves out of their respective holes?) ??

Who in hell is "John"? He's not one of alt.checkmate's k00ks...
we have enough as it is.

Not this kooky!

That would be John Henry DeJong who hasn't come here (RSPW) in
over 4.5 years after a day long post Xmas meltdown at the end of
2018. Previous to that he claims he ran away from RSPW about 15
years before after losing every fight he ever started. He's been a
well despised and much mocked mooch through several decades.

He won't show anyplace where he can't control and censor the
content. His last Usenet visit as himself got him laughed off the
group.

There's several parody pages:

https://www.facebook.com/John.Henry.USA.net and
https://www.facebook.com/sendmoneytobeefy are public.

This is basically John in a nutshell.
https://imgur.com/a/R1ZJnV8

And here's John destroying his monitor when it got trashed after
he was evicted. I believe this video is from 12/2018 or 01/2019
https://vimeo.com/311316692

He's out of breath at the end likely due to smoking used
cigarettes he confessed to fishing out of public ashtrays. So sad.

Enjoy.

He just yanked all the content from Facebook, a website and other
media in a hissy fit. This was after a few vague hints at suicide
and confessing that his mooching efforts netted him a grand total
of 10 dollars for the month of June.

I hope the healing message I sent him didn't scare him off.

He could be someone someday. Who knows?

This confession sums John up nicely: "When I was raising all kinds
of hell on this newsgroup in the '90s, I was blowing my brains out
on cocaine, meth, ecstasy, LSD, psilocybin, weed, and drinking
heavily on a nearly full-time basis, basically trying to kill
myself via narcotic abuse because I didn't have the balls to just
shoot myself in the head. There is no point prior to late 1999 in
which my posts weren't fortified with at least three different
drugs, and often twice that many."

You only wish you had a kook this good in alt.checkmate.

You don't have John himself posting to the froup. (Meanwhile,
Perfessor Mojibake can't keep from scribbling in a.c.)

But we do! His Laz Mann sockpuppet posts every now and then to shill
and beg for money.

Suspecting you don't have John himself posting in RSPW because
his is a suspected anxious-avoidant attachment
strategy. (I wouldn't expect him to post, it's too
hostile for him.)

No, it's because John's last explicit appearance as Net.Bastard was
such an overwhelming failure that he has no desire to own up to his
rants. He's stopped in and attempted to be someone else since. Don't
overanalyze it.

All of this is bullshit. This person - who is almost certainly not
Dave Zimmerman, as I can't recall a single time Dave and I ever had
hostility nor can I think of any reason he'd be involved; the last I
heard anything about him he'd supposedly moved to Australia or
something after a woman in the UK he was trying to hook up with
dumped him - has spent the last twenty-five years or so hiding behind
sockpuppets and recruiting petit trolls and harassers to do his dirty
work for him, while hiding behind an army of sockpuppets and fake
names and leveraging the various helpful aspects of different
websites and social media networks to conceal his identity. They
know I tend to REALLY piss off a small set of folks, and they feed
those folks and encourage them to escalate and propagate all the BS,
so as to ensure nobody can be held directly responsible for any of
it.

This is the first time I've posted to this group since 2018. The
only reason I'm here now is because I googled my name on a whim and
realized that this is a huge part of the reason I can't get a job at
all beyond schtupping canned goods at a grocery store or digging
ditches, neither of which I'm physically able to do anymore due to
various wear and tear related to aging - I'm fifty-two.

When I stopped by here at the end of 2018 - at the encouragement of a
"friend" - I was here for half an hour, took one look at the place,
and went "no fuckin' way, the few people left here are completely out
of their tree, fuck. all. this." That was after having left back in
2005 because I founded a non-profit theater group and didn't want
this person and their fellow travelers hassling a bunch of kids.

I've never made a secret of my "secrets." I was strung out on coke
for a dozen years, up until '99. I was a physically abusive
boyfriend and father; the latter debatable even by current standards
(this is a country that loves corporal punishment!), and I've been
very open about that in public in the hope that by doing so I could
encourage others suffering from similar mental health issues to get
help and get better.

This person - whose identity I don't know with certainty, but it's
one of two, to 95%CI - has been playing this game for at least two
decades. They've contacted my family multiple times; one of them
spent a few years soliciting nudes from my then-underage daughter.
They've contacted employers, friends, they even called my current
roommate before anyone even knew I was living here. There is a very
slim but non-zero possibility that the computer I'm using now is
partially compromised; I genuinely have no idea how they even knew
where I was, let alone who I was with, as the two of us go quite far
back and have mutual acquaintances, and we both were very much not
interested in any of them (including members of my family) know of
the connection, but they were in my roommate's ear within a week or
so of my moving in here.

There are at least two people involved here who are pathologically
obsessed with me. One of them has encouraged the other to believe
that I'm posting here under all these sockpuppets and playing all
these games but the truth is I've been trying to shake the stink of
this dump out of my hair for basically two decades now.

I suspect the biggest problem is that many years ago I ended up
jaw-flapping my way into the wrestling business where I had a great
time and met some famous people, and they wanted that but didn't have
any of the necessary skills or attributes to make it happen. And I
walked away.
I've been focused mostly on political activism and writing since
then,
and haven't looked back.

I had believed that my increasing difficulty in finding any job that
involves so much as a cursory background check was related to that
activity - leftist anti-capitalist anti-corporate authoritarian with
a personality and solid stage presence, if I'm an employer I can
understand how I wouldn't hire that guy he's gonna come in and
unionize my shop and be a rabble-rouser, turn us in to OSHA for
cutting corners or whatever. Hell, he's "ANTIFA," and "we all know"
they're "terrorists." Cost of doing business; if you're gonna fight
city hall, you gotta expect city hall's gonna fight back. I'm
fighting plutocracy and oligarchy and the rise of American fascism
and ultimately capitalism itself - it's an unsustainable poison in
our culture and world, compromising integrity and creating conflict
of interest in everything it touches including health care,
education, media, and criminal justice - and it stands to reason that
those who are participating in capitalism would not want to help fund
that because they see it as a threat to their way of life (which it
is, because collectively our way of life is shit and has to change or
we're just not gonna last much longer). So I kind of just went 'eh,'
took the hit, kept up my work, and have relied on crowdfunding and
what little menial labor work I could find to survive.

A couple of days ago, on a whim, I googled my full name, and found
this ungodly shitpile with my name all over it, stretching back
decades. It's not unintentional that my full name is used so
frequently; the entire point of that is to do precisely what has been
done, which is to ensure that anyone googling me runs smack into a
litany of supposed offenses ranging from farting in church to grand
larceny to child abuse to DUI. It shows up before anything, including
my own websites.

This is why I've spent the last fifteen years or so having great
interviews and feeling like I probably had a gig, only to get that
classic phone call of Jim Crow and other sub-surface discrimination:
"sorry, we found another candidate." This is why I don't have a gig
now with someone like Progress Michigan or the ACLU or the campaigns
of progressive candidates like Sanders or Tlaib.

In the main these people can't stand me because they wish they had
the spine to BE me, to face all the crap that's been piled on and
survive and keep fighting, because they know they wouldn't be able
to. This is why one of them encouraged me to have myself committed -
all in "friendship" and "concern" of course - because they've been
5150'd multiple times and they're pissed that I haven't. There are
other things that I'm not going to go into detail about here and now,
for reasons of my own...but those reasons aren't to hide anything
about myself beyond what I'm doing right now aside from writing this
message.

You should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," there
have been 160+ conversations in this group about me *this year*. You
should probably ask yourself why, if I'm so "paranoid," these people
know so much about me and my life - I've never mentioned my
roommate's name in public, and neither has she.

It started off, some 25+ years ago, being a bunch of dumbasses
playing wrassler on the internet, cutting stupid promos and
pretending to be all that stuff for giggles. Then a few people
started crossing lines, interfering with people's jobs (the first
time it happened to me was in 1997 I think, at NCSU). Then when
those targeted swung back and landed a few hits of their own, the
psychos really lost it and escalated. As I said above, eventually it
got to the point where it wasn't worth participating given the level
of BS in unrelated life that it created, and I walked away.

There's nothing a narcissist hates more than being ignored, and it
appears at least two - possibly more, I have no way of knowing for
sure, that's part of their game - narcissists have made me the focus
of blame for their failed and miserable lives, and have worked quite
a bit harder than I'd realized up until the last couple of days to
ensure my life was just as failed and miserable as theirs. Except
unlike them, I don't have a trail of insecure but affluent women
stretching back over the last three decades that I've stolen from and
beat on and abused; I stopped dating in March of 2001 for various
reasons, all of them related to not wanting to get involved in a
relationship again until I could do so in a healthy way and get my
insecurities and fears and such under control. Unlike them, I admit I
*have* a daughter. Unlike them, I haven't made up stories about
joining the military to cover having my ass rubber-roomed. Unlike
them, I haven't made the last twenty years about making other
people's lives miserable and hurting people because it's the only
thing I know how to do.

And unlike them, I'm not cross-posting all of this to every troll
farm and harassment base etc. I can find in the hopes of recruiting
them to join in on the harassment.

I haven't "reinvented myself," ever. I haven't even cut my hair in
almost 15 years and other than a lot of gray and some extra pounds
look exactly like I did when I was 20. Other than pissing around on
Usenet back in the mid-late 90s and early 2000s (as above), I've
never tried to hide my identity or pretend to be anyone else but who
I am. I haven't "deleted my work" or tried to "hide" thing -
everything I've ever put on the web is readily available through the
wayback machine. That said, I do tend to block and ban harassers and
the kinds of wet-fart personalities who do psycho shit like posting
lie after lie after lie to comment sections on my social media pages
and then claim I'm "hiding something" when I boot them.

That's part of their problem, you see - they hide behind technology
and arcane systems that are easy to spoof and hide your identity on,
and that most people including the vast majority of law enforcement
don't understand. I just got off the phone with MIAG, and I had to
explain to them what USENET is. Their answer is "well just have your
lawyer (hah!) contact google and delete the messages." The girl on
the phone at the FBI was audibly eyerolling as soon as I said
"internet."

Understand that *I am an antifascist, anti-authoritarian, left-wing
small-L libertarian, i.e. "ansoc," anarcho-socialist. I believe the
only valid functions of government are regulation of commerce and
industry, and protecting the general public from psychotic losers
like this.

Unfortunately we don't live in that world. Indeed, to a certain
point they even have "the right" to say what they want. Of course
that right ends firmly at slander, but that doesn't really matter
when you can't even canonically identify who's involved, now does it?
What am I gonna do, sue a sockpuppet?

These people want to see me ended because they can't live up to who I
am at my worst, and they don't even want you to see me at my best.
That's why there are 160 conversations about me in six months, in a
newsgroup I haven't given serious thought in nearly twenty years.

A few months ago, one of the primary actors, who I believe is in a
major decompensation event after I finally told them to get the hell
out of my world and stay out, started feeding a random FB dick I was
arguing with this information, and in doing so provided me with
sufficient evidence to be 99.8% certain who that person was - and I'd
suspected them for a very long time, suspicions that were also
confirmed by various behavioral tics and such in our interactions
over time. Then when I found all this a couple of days ago, it got
to 99.9.

There's really only a few people in the world who have both the
technical know-how and the motivation to do this to me. I can think
of exactly two by name...and I'm beginning to suspect that much of
the alleged involvement of Dink in all of this is also a smokescreen
because he's such a moron it's easy to think he'd be responsible.
And I think he's got his hands in, because he's a psycho loser and
we've all known that for twenty-five years, but frankly he appears to
have enough going on in his life to simply not have this much free
time on his hands, and if he offered to just let it all drop and walk
away...well, I'd be doing the same thing I have been, which is
forgetting about him (at least until a "friend" shows up pretending
to be him and brings it up again).

But it's not all him, and I suspect he's been manipulated a bit by
the other one...just like pretty much everybody dogpiling these
threads has. Of course I can't "prove," because that's the point. To
make me seem "paranoid" and "delusional" and maybe get frustrated
enough to get my ass thrown in a rubber room like he did.

In the end, they hate my spirit because they're ashamed of themselves
- far too ashamed to admit to anyone who they are or what they do, or
to come out from behind the sockpuppets and fake accounts and
AI-generated bullshit - and they see me being ashamed and owning it,
knowing they don't have the guts to measure up to that, and since
they can't rise to my level, all they have left is to drag me down to
theirs...and it's literally driving them nuts that they can't.

I know what my sins and crimes are, and I've been quite public about
owning up to them - as you can clearly see. Have I posted a
fourth-step inventory to the world? No. It's not necessary and it
would only serve to open old wounds and possibly cause harm in the
very act of trying to reduce or make amends for that harm. That's
why the 9th step includes the caveat "...wherever possible, except
when to do so would injure them or others." Sometimes it's not
possible, sometimes the attempt would do further harm. There are
plenty of such things that have been done to me, as well, and there
won't be amends made for those. Some amends can't be made, some
mistakes can't be un-made, and sometimes the only thing you can do is
say "well, that sucked," and keep on moving forward and living your
life.

That's what I've been trying to do for twenty years, and these
weirdos just will. not. let. go.

I've done everything I could to complete that step. I've made my
amends to those I've harmed whenever possible, except when to do so
would injure them or others; and I've changed my behavior to avoid
harming anyone else - including flat-out avoiding any sort of
physical relationship for 18 years. I've tried to help others. In
some cases, that help was turned on me and shoved into my back like a
blade, but that's gonna happen sometimes when you're trying to help
people who are addicts and suffering with serious mental illness and
dysfunction.

But in the end I know who I am, I know what I've done, and I've done
everything I could to right past wrongs and dedicate my life to
improving the world around me, including helping those who are still
caught up in that kind of behavior find pathways to sanity and hope;
to show people who feel, as I once did, that they just weren't worthy
of life to find their worth, to understand that they have value and
they can make choices every day to not be that monster, like I've
learned to do. There's nothing else I *can* do in most cases short
of hara-kiri, and while I live with major depressive disorder and
there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of killing myself
at least once, it's just thoughts. I'm not going to do that, because
I still have good work to do in this world, and I'm not going to let
anyone, including myself, stop me from doing it.

And that, more than anything else, is why a couple of badly broken,
deranged, and psychotic narcissists have been up my ass like a
colonoscopy for twenty years.

Anyone who is buying in to this is being played for a patsy by a
psycho, and the psycho isn't me.

I don't hide. I don't sock up and pretend to be other people. I
don't work back-channel and in the shadows, dealing in rumor and
innuendo and faked screenshots and exploiting addiction and
desperation and even just the petty venality of punch-down trolling
to hurt people who I know I have no valid reason to hurt.

I'm no prince, no messiah, no "great good man." I've done some
pretty rotten things in my life, and I'm doing what I can to balance
that.

These people don't want that to happen, because if it does then
they're left with nothing but to look at their own failure to address
their own issues and know that the failure is indeed their own.

Don't get sucked in to it. You're being used and manipulated by at
least one, probably two, and maybe several psychotic narcissists who
have been caught in a feedback loop of blaming me for their problems
for over half their lives.

Now I'm leaving again, and I don't intend to be back. Stop falling
for this "oh it's JH in a sock" shit. It isn't. If I've got
something to say, I'll say it loud and clear with my own face and
voice, just as I always have.

I hope those of you who have spent half your lives up my ass manage
to get the help you so clearly and desperately need.

PS: I'm not naming the "friend" because I'm not going to give them
anything to hang their own lawsuit on, just as I didn't interfere in
their abusive relationships because if I did, they'd blame me for
those relationships collapsing. You all know who I mean.

Best,
John Henry DeJong
Kalamazoo, MI

How do you respond to this, Chad?

That's "Cousin Davey Zimmerman, sir" to you.

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