Dustin Hoffman Sexually Harassed Me When I Was 17 (Guest Column)
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by Anna Graham Hunter
The author, who slapped away the star's butt grabs and laughed off
his vulgar language on the set of 1985 TV film 'Death of a
Salesman,' still feels conflicted: "I loved the attention. Until I
didn't."
This is a story I've told so often I'm sometimes surprised when
someone I know hasn't heard it. It begins, "Dustin Hoffman sexually
harassed me when I was 17." Then I give the details: When I was a
senior in high school in New York City, interning as a production
assistant on the set of the Death of a Salesman TV film, he asked me
to give him a foot massage my first day on set; I did. He was openly flirtatious, he grabbed my ass, he talked about sex to me and in
front of me. One morning I went to his dressing room to take his
breakfast order; he looked at me and grinned, taking his time. Then
he said, "I'll have a hard-boiled egg … and a soft-boiled clitoris."
His entourage burst out laughing. I left, speechless. Then I went to
the bathroom and cried.
The first several times I told this story, I left out the soft-
boiled clitoris. When I finally started including it, my voice
sometimes broke. But it got easier. When I spoke to a reporter
recently and she told me she would have to track down people from
the set to verify my account, I felt queasy. What would they say? I
could only imagine them shaking their heads: "She didn't seem too
bothered by it then. She sure laughed a lot."
There was so much I loved about being on set — taking John
Malkovich's lunch orders and falling more deeply in love every time
he spoke to me or said my name; bonding with the crew as we worked
16-hour days; hearing Arthur Miller say my first two names because
they sounded like a word game, and that amused him; dancing the
polka with Charles Durning, who made every room he entered a happier
place. And yes, I loved the attention from Dustin Hoffman. Until I
didn't.
During my five weeks on set, I detailed my days and mailed
dispatches to my sister in London after making copies for myself.
Recently, I reread them for the first time in several years.
*Some names have been changed
•••
WEEK ONE
January 21, 1985 During lunch I had to put some chairs in Dustin
Hoffman's room. When I went in, he was with Elizabeth* [another
production assistant], his daughter Jenna, his stand-in Cassandra
(who was giving him a foot massage) and his assistant Frankie.
"Why don't you join our little party?"
"I haven't finished my lunch."
"So go get your lunch."
So I did. Cassandra was rubbing his feet and he said, "Ah, this goes
right to my brain. You know, every time you touch your foot, it goes
to a different part of your body. Right now, Cas is at my right
kidney."
Jenna said, "Good, press harder!"
When Cassandra had gone, he asked me to massage his foot. I said,
"I'm only good at necks."
He said, "So pretend it's a neck."
Elizabeth and I were discussing why he is so nice to us. One reason
is because he likes girls. Jenna is in eighth grade. Another is
probably because he gets tired of all the kissy-assy people.
January 23, 1985 Today, Dustin entertained me, Elizabeth, John
Malkovich, Stephen Lang and Arthur Miller with an enlightening
discussion on breasts. Needless to say, I felt quite inadequate
throughout the whole thing. He said, "I don't like them when they're
tan, because then they look like part of the body." Stephen said,
"Which they're not." Dustin is a great storyteller.
•••
WEEK TWO
January 28, 1985 Dustin said to me today, "So, did you have sex over
the weekend like I told you?"
"No."
"What is this, celibate weekends?"
"Next weekend, OK?"
"No, I'm talking about last weekend. You sure you didn't?"
"Yes." I was cracking up.
"Smile if you're lying."
January 31, 1985 Today, I realized some things about this business
that scare me. First of all, Dustin's a lech. I'm completely
disillusioned. After Tootsie, I thought I wanted to marry him.
Elizabeth asked him what he wanted for lunch and he said, "Your left
breast."
"You're disgusting."
"OK, your right breast."
"You pig." She walked away.
Pam* [office assistant] said, "If [producer] Bob Colesberry had
heard that, she would have been gone in a second." I know Dustin
would never let that happen, but it's still scary.
Today, when I was walking Dustin to his limo, he felt my ass four
times. I hit him each time, hard, and told him he was a dirty old
man. He took off his hat and pointed to his head (shaved for the
part) and said, "No, I'm a dirty young man, I have a full head of
hair." So would Bob have fired me if he'd seen me hit Dustin?
I'll go out in the snow at 10 a.m. to get Kate [Reid] an anchovy
pizza, and I'll order lunch from three different places so she can
entertain her friends with champagne and caviar, but I'm not going
to let Dustin have his hands all over me. And I think it sucks if
Bob Colesberry expects me to.
February 4, 1985 Today this business got scarier. Or at least less
appealing. This morning when I asked Dustin what he wanted for
breakfast, he said something that beat even his lows. It was worse
than anything anyone has ever said to me on the street. It was so
gross I couldn't say anything. I just turned around and walked out.
Then later I tried to get into a serious conversation with Frankie
about why Dustin is like that. I don't know how Dustin knew what we
were talking about, but he shouted, "Anna! Are you badmouthing me?
Anna! Get over here, Anna!" The whole crew was cracking up, and I
ducked behind a set.
Later, I was delivering lunches when John, Stephen and Dustin came
down the hall and he shouted, "Anna! So you think I'm a sexist pig,
huh? Anna!" The whole fucking studio heard him. So I told him that I
didn't appreciate his wandering hands or his comments. He apologized
and said he would stop.
After that he was so nice to me I was shocked. We talked about
Ironweed (always a good conversation starter — "So, have you read
Ironweed?"). Between takes he kept passing me bubble gum. Suddenly a
piece would come flying out of nowhere, and then I'd see him
smiling. When I was walking up the stairs carrying a box of Cokes,
he rushed up and grabbed it for me. I guess he felt really bad. He
was like he is around his wife — Mr. Paternity.
But the bad news is Brenda* [my supervisor] said it's too bad it
became an issue. Hell, I didn't make it an issue. He did. She said
that for the sake of the production we have to sacrifice some of our
values and just let it roll over our heads. She said we should try
to have a sense of humor and just giggle and slap his hands or
something. But that's when I feel the cheapest, like, "Oh, she
really likes it."
I laugh at most things because I don't want to appear hard-nosed,
but sometimes I just can't. You know? Most of this deference is
directly because of my sex. I find that hard to deal with. I hope
it's over now. Who knows, maybe Dustin respects me because of what I
said.
February 8, 1985 Warren Beatty came to the studio yesterday. I was
standing in the best place possible [to watch filming]. So he and
Bob Colesberry stood next to me for 45 minutes. He smiled and I
introduced myself. He looked good, but a bit gray.
Dustin said to me afterward, "So Anna, I get Warren tonight, you get
him Tuesday?" Today he said, "You might as well have undressed
yourself. You were saying, 'Fuck me, fuck me, Warren.' "
WEEK FOUR
February 14, 1985 Dustin gave all the girls in the studio a key ring
with a little heart that says, "Love, Willy." Of course, I'll flaunt
it when I go to school.
•••
WEEK FIVE
February 20, 1985 No one is 100 percent good or bad. Dustin's a pig,
but I like him a lot.
•••
I have so many reactions reading these letters and looking at photos
from that time. The novel Ironweed as a conversation starter! God
bless that glorious, pretentious kid.
Mostly though, my heart aches. It aches for the teenager who was so
thrilled to join a movie star's party that she gave him a foot rub
even though she didn't want to, even though she tried to protest she
wasn't good at it. My heart aches for the awkward virgin with the
bad hair who had only been kissed three times in her life, laughing
as the man her father's age talked about breasts and sex. I want to
weep that she found this charming.
I want to hug her for having the guts to tell him to stop, even
though her voice shook. Because she was so proud of herself. But I
wonder what her reaction would have been if she'd wanted to join the
film business — if the internship hadn't been a fun way to get out
of classes her last semester of high school? Would she have
swallowed her humiliation and ditched her college plans to accept
his offer of a job on Ishtar? As it was, this was a lark, and damn
if she was going to let a few shitty encounters get in the way of
the most exciting experience of her life. She was going to flaunt
the keychain he gave her and take pictures with every actor she
could get her hands on.
Last, I wish I could tell her: That pressure you're always feeling
to lighten up, laugh at things, not be hard-nosed? That's never
going to go away. But one day, when you're in your 40s, you're going
to realize just how good it feels to finally say "Fuck you" to
everyone who would have you dampen your anger. Your rage is going to
fly, and it's going to feel good.
The rage does feel good, momentarily. But it's not the whole story,
as I knew then. Yes, he was gross. But he could also be sweet and
wanted me to like him. Which I did.
Whenever I talk about this, I sense that my listeners want a victim
and a villain. And I wish my feelings were as clear as theirs. I
would be more comfortable if I felt nothing but revulsion for a man
who had power over me and abused it.
But I still like watching him onscreen. I owned the VHS of Tootsie
for a long time and watched it over and over in my 20s and 30s, even
as I remembered telling him how disappointed I was, that I expected
better of him after that movie. Not long ago I watched All the
President's Men for the first time in years and then texted my
sister: Is it weird that I find him kind of sexy in this after what
he did?
He wasn't the first to make me think my physical presence was the
best I had to offer. My freshman year in high school, there were a
couple of older guys I liked who would sandwich me in the hallway
between classes, running their hands over my hips and ass, saying,
"We decided it was time to molest Anna." I would have rather been
the girlfriend of one of them, but if it was a choice between being
molested or being ignored, I chose their hands on me.
When I was a sophomore, I wanted to take a writing class taught by
Frank McCourt, who had not yet published Angela's Ashes but was a
celebrity among the students. When I approached him, he put his arm
around me and said, "You are good-looking. I can feast my tired eyes
on you." I would have rather been my friend whose essay he liked so
much he helped her get it published in The New York Times, but I was
grateful to get into his class. By the time Dustin Hoffman asked me
to give him a foot rub, I'd learned to reconcile mild humiliation
with desire for attention or access.
A year and a half after Death of a Salesman, I would meet another,
much older married actor who, like Dustin, alternately charmed and
repelled me. Unlike Dustin, he was in it for the long game. It took
him weeks to kiss the top of my head and eight months to invite me
to his apartment to take a nap. People use the term grooming to
describe what sexual predators do with children so they can reap the
benefits, but what if they groom us so other men can reap the
benefits? Did the older guys in high school pave the way for Dustin
Hoffman who paved the way for the other actor who paved the way for
all the other older men I've known were bad news but whom I've been
drawn to anyway? At 49, I understand what Dustin Hoffman did as it
fits into the larger pattern of what women experience in Hollywood
and everywhere. He was a predator, I was a child, and this was
sexual harassment. As to how it fits into my own pattern, I imagine
I'll be figuring that out for years to come.
Editor's Note: Contacted by The Hollywood Reporter, Hoffman
responded, "I have the utmost respect for women and feel terrible
that anything I might have done could have put her in an
uncomfortable situation. I am sorry. It is not reflective of who I
am."
:Hunter is an L.A.-based writer. She's currently working on a
:memoir, Anyone Who Comes Close: A Year of Tinder, Divorce, and
:Love in the Age of the Internet.
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